In Hospital And Thrown Out.

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Very briefly, I have been thrown out of the shelter, and, on a cold night, am in the hospital ER, about to be discharged, to go who knows where .

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

...I was discharged, now I am outside the shelter, maybe I will get in, if not?? Maybe I'll have the police arrest me then. Also , someone who was really nasty aneatening to me yesterday went by me and repeated his nastiness. I got some blood on hospital lines, too, so Omniel will be angry at me, boo hoo, I hurt her feelings .
I was going to go to church Sunday. Now, I don't know, if this shelter, run by Episcopal Services, would I split with the Episcopal Church, which I've always been in ?

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

...I didn't get thrown out, briefly, I suppose becase/helped by a more reasonable later staff being on, I got upstairs and got put in a " penalty bed ", I guess, for that nite. I meant to post about that here, but I stayed in bed then fell asleep then it was morning, then batjroom, breakfast, now, finally, this.
One of these nights, this being tjrown out will become permanent, I believe
A reason to leave?
Well, for all the people who care about me .
I, also, had to deal with macho a**hole BS this a.m. ...Remember, I have to deal with at least the possibility ALL THE TIME. I an NEVER go shut the door and put music on and cry.
Even though it was unintentional, I got some of my blood on the hospital's linen...So I'll expect Omniel to come in and rage at me!

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

...It is now 8:57 AM. Twelve minutes ago, it was 8:45.
I was going to go to church, but...It starts at 10:15 AM. I mentioned that, one morning, it took me 50-55 minutes to get downhill to a feed.
I would have to walk further than that, then wait for a bus, then, off the bus, walk - with uphill - some more. And, from now, I'd really need to put in clean pants, and more besides to make a proper trip slower. Basically, it' s just too late now - even just past 9:00 AM I'm a cripple, you know:(.

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

People can be so nasty. Do you find that they're any nicer when you're clean with clean clothes?

...Thank you for your sympathy.
I am fairly clean now, though I need, ideally, to change pants now.
Ideally, I should bath entirely, and put on entirely new clothes - but my life should be different to be ideal!

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

I can only imagine what that must be like. So I was wondering how people's attitudes have changed toward you when you were in different situations. I realize that getting clean clothes and a shower isn't always as simple as it seems.