cberg wrote:
Maybe it's a karmic cycle my neurotransmitters are just responding to. The more time I spend isolated, the more I think there isn't really so much of a boundary layer between me & the entire remainder of the world.
My AS-like mom wondered that about her AS-like mother. I just figured out today that I keep on the move to avoid this. My current "resting" state is in motion --- b/c when I stop, really stop --- I could spend hours absorbing my environment.
cberg wrote:
I'm just about to eat somw crazy pills & go to sleep.

You go to bed early and/or they take time to act. In any case, sleep well! Sleep is so very important for us (or at least I have been told that by multiple professionals since college and I believe it).