Evil Me is coming back...

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In fact, Evil Me never really left. Evil Me is the one whose misanthrope level is at 120%, swears a blue streak, calls everyone filthy names, an commits self harm, like stabbing myself with a pen last night. Autism Forums just gave me crap about swearing and bashing NTs on their site. What a bunch of little pansies. Can't even say how much I hate religion or politics on their wimpy-ass site. WP is a magnet for woman-hating incels, but at least I have a bit more free speech here.

Human being are worthless pieces of crap and I hate them all. I only have two choices in this so-called life of mine: commit suicide, or murder everyone. No I'm not okay. I never have been and I never will be. Not trying to be Miss Edgelord or whatever BS you call it, I'm just not being what I truly am because I am full of hate and anger and frustration. HUMANS. ARE. SCUM. You know that new strain of coronavirus? It's not killing people fast enough.

Welcome back lostonearth35.

Hmmmmm... WB

i think this is a natural consequence of spending a lot of time on the internet and being exposed all the time to the dark side of humanity and our generally bleak nature and perhaps future

there are a lot of terrible things here. of course, a lot of good too

i remember reading posts of yours saying you hated going outside so i don't know how viable of an option it is for you, but it helps me a lot.

It doesn't work for me all the time, I need a second or two to process. But, I'm learning that thing about naming 5 things I see, 5 things I smell, and so on, in times of stress. The big kicker is having a minute. If I sign on here and the first thing I see is a nasty message in my inbox, I don't do so hot. Also, blowing a car horn in my ear is likely to get a knee jerk reaction.

I need that 6 second God space and I don't know how to get there. Meaning take 6 seconds before acting, speaking. I'm wound tighter than Dick's hatband on any given day.

I get it. That's about all I can offer.

What makes you angry all the time?

I agree with Kip about the Internet. Many more idiots on there in my experience than in actual real life.

yin/yang
positive/negative
light/dark
up/down
good/evil
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apparently you have this bilateral aspect also.
you present your so-called 'evil' side... but in a forum of people you seem to feel you have an association with.
even evil people do good things... perhaps for personal gain, perhaps only to certain individuals (including certain other beings on this planet), but there always seems to be room for a not-so-evil part within.
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I won't pretend to know why you battle within yourself... even to the point of self-harm... but from your words, it seems you don't harm yourself 24/7... so part of your non-evil self seems to be in control at times.
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It sounds like it's pretty f*****g tough to deal with what goes on inside your head.
I'd like to be able to offer you some cool thing you could appreciate.. maybe I'll happen upon it down the line and share it with you sometime... perhaps just accidentally.
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In the meantime... I hope you can find more balance between your yin & yang

Globalization

Overgeneralization

There are seven billion precious lil "people" in the world

You have not interacted with all of them

"Worthless"? You can't measure the retail value

The retail value is constantly changing

You don't control your retail value

Like a numberline

Below salvage value

often times been afraid of others being judgemental HERE .. so i actually erased my first response to your post . Seeing others responding to your post here . am little more confident ........ politely put , Have seen your post and at many times have identical leanings . ( thoughts) except am alittle adverse to physical pain . so cannot antogonize myself , by merely causing pain to myself.
Have had enough of others inflicting it . conciously speaking . on other levels of thought , am not able to address ( ie. the Subconcious) . And see it is not a positive thing for anyone to put on others .But you may consider what you have written inprint , what others of us have already thought at various times . But have had noone to confide in with them. already having understood that lack of social acceptance issues for aspie type s , can be a constant reminder of this type of resulting behaviour . When all efforts to blend in have been expired . And life has been less than kind , much less outright cruel .


Welcome Back ............ for whatever that is worth to you .