If I were you, I’d google your local Samaritans or a church(mainstream) close by and talk to them... someone there will be all too willing to assist, even just listen, if only over the phone. Pain just makes everything worse, doesn’t it! Do what you can to get the pain as under control as possible(if you need meds, the Samaritans will likely help, I’m sure). Once you’ve worked on the pain element, then it’s about staying in control. You may be a child in a woman’s body, but you have the power to self-calm ... we all do. You need to self soothe with calm music ... your fave Bryan Adams music
. You may feel very much alone, but you’re not. Everything has changed, the world is not what it was, but a new “normal” will set in, and we all will adapt. It’s about reassuring yourself that everything will be alright and it will. We have to ride this crazy wave for a bit... and then some more ... and eventually, a new normal will emerge. Life will eventually re-emerge and hopefully, we’ll all have new perspectives on life and each other, at least for a time. Human behaviour can be very distressing at times of fear and change ... Try to keep a routine going for yourself, if possible ... get your mind off the pain through music, reading, anything that might help you... scream into a pillow occasionally if you need to ... your cat is a source of pain relief ... pat him, love him and give him the care you need others to give to you ... xx