I ordered groceries, I cleaned them, my thumb was hurting (I have arthritis in my thumb,side of my hand, my wrist, my back & my shoulders) my leg was badly hurting, going back & foreword to clean,I could feel my bones. I got all worked up. I’m trying to be very carefully with handling my groceries, I keep touching bags, I keep touching frozen meals. This is VERY VERY HARD! I don’t want to do it anymore. How can I live the rest of my life if I can be miserable in my life? I was crying, I almost threw up, I kept saying I want to die, I want to have a heart attack, a painless death.