I feel like I don't want to go to work any more

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I feel so disappointed in myself because I've always wanted the job I'm in now and since I've been in the job I've loved it, but for some reason I just don't feel motivated to go in any more. I have been off this week (annual holiday) and it's so comforting to know that I don't have to go to work the next day. But it's the weekend now and I'm due back at work on Monday, and I really don't feel like going. I've just lost enthusiasm in taking part in this society. I just want to become a hermit (like the neighbours upstairs) and not have to go out to work. It's not the job or the environment or even the people, it's just me struggling to carry on. I had to go home one of the days last week because I just felt so mentally exhausted that I could barely move or think straight. I felt like a zombie or a person with Alzheimer's, I looked at the task I had to do and I suddenly forgot how to do it. I just couldn't think at all.

What's happening to me? I wish I was rich and didn't have to work any more.

That's strange cos the same symptoms happened to me. I thought it was a nervous breakdown and called the doctors for an appointment.
Did you get a headache as well?

I'm thinking that your lack of enthusiasm might be caused by you not feeling like you have a part in society, cos you feel rejected you feel like society has nothing to offer you. Which is understandable.

When you are off work just a bit longer than the usual weekend, it's not uncommon that going back to work feels overwhelming and requires extra mental effort. Some people at my work told me that when they did a long-hour few-day shift (working 3 days of the week for many hours each day), they felt going back to work required so much mental effort every week. They didn't like it. I was like experiencing that depressing feeling that you feel towards the end of your long vacation, every week.

So, how you feel is understandable. When you go back to work with some effort, you will realize you are ok.

No, it definitely is not covid. Why is the answer to every ailment always covid?

No, this is different. It's like a mild nervous breakdown. I have been to the doctor about it, she just suggested I get more sleep by not playing on my phone before bed, which wasn't really that helpful.

I did ask if she could up my antidepressants but she didn't seem to take heed. I'm having therapy but he can only delve into one thing at a time, and we're working on social anxiety in public spaces at the moment.

I think I've just got depression.

To me it just sounds like you are exhausted because you have probably been masking or otherwise overextending yourself by doing too many things.

It can lead to burnout so please take time if you can or focus on your interests and other things that restore your energy and sense of self. For me it's often music and dancing and going to nature and rewatching my favourite tv-shows.

Also I think everyone feels like they don't want to go to work anymore several times in their lives despite liking their jobs, so it is probably nothing to worry about unless it persists for a long time in which case there should be reason to take inventory of what are the reasons and if you could be happy elsewhere, or if the same reasons would probably follow to another job.

I only mask my sadness/depression, otherwise communicating at work doesn't take much mental energy. In fact talking to people does me good. During my worst moments I've been on the phone to my closest family members, getting everything off my chest, and getting some support and wisdom from my partner. But as soon as I'm alone I start thinking again and feeling depressed.

I have been having trouble sleeping for the last couple of months, but that's a different topic (see my thread here).
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It's like I get to work and I can't be bothered, but I don't mean in a slob way. I don't want to be like this but my depression just makes me want to slump in a chair and not do anything that involves much thinking or doing, unless it's talking or writing/on my phone.

It may look to some people like I'm just a lazy slob but it is NOT that at all.

Sweet Pea hugs