Cant get rid of quietness and reluctance

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Im not sure if it's depression relapsing again, or laziness, or something else.

I dont want to meet or talk with anyone, family and some relatives are the only ones i talk to. This reluctance and inertia makes me quiet and i dont really like it. I want to be more active and do something significant at least, but this situation doesnt let me. Also people around me are not alike and i have nothing in common. Im scared of losing all passion about my special interests because i have nothing else to do in life.

So thats all i can think of for today

Are you at least getting out of your residence? Maybe visiting a park?

My wife died 10 days before my retirement went into effect. She had become physically disabled. The idea was to be able to help her more and have more time to spend together.

Needless to say, my plans pretty much got obliterated. I have had a lot of days where I haven't felt like doing anything.

I was not diagnosed autistic until after my 64th birthday. Not knowing why I was different and never fit in forced me to adopt some pretty stringent self-discipline in order to function in school, college, Air Force, and civilian career.

Though I don't have to fake being normal for work anymore, I haven't discarded life-long self discipline. I do allow myself more chill-out time than I used to, but when I notice the apathy setting in, I basically kick in the discipline and get back on my projects whether I want to or not.