I know I have higher support needs and it's not fully my fault. It's just difficult to explain when I try to make friends or talk to relatives who don't know me that well. It's difficult for people to understand invisible disabilities. Yea, I don't work even though I'd like to. I don't drive. I can't really go places alone. New friends think it's odd that I can't just go places.
People have said I'm not treated like an adult. It makes me feel weird cause I want to be treated like one. I just make questionable decisions sometimes. I always want to help people. I'm in my 20s but I'm more vulnerable than most people my age. I have wandered off, went with strangers, and have had meltdowns in public. The worst is shut downs though. I start getting overwhelmed, and can't talk to people.
I'm more independent lately in that I go for walks sometimes. I have started making phone calls more. I just feel weird when I'm around other people my age who are living alone or doing things I feel I should be able to do. I struggle to learn things and need things to be repeated a lot. It's annoyed people before. I love to read though and know a lot. However sometimes people don't think I know anything.
Hygeine is a struggle. I shower more though, I just need to be reminded to sometimes. People always remind me to put on clean clothes. Sometimes I don't because I start getting a feeling of dread and it causes me to feel lightheaded. Everyone acts like it's so easy. I don't know why but it's not always for me. Sometimes I just sit on the couch and don't do anything. It makes me feel sad.
18 Oct 2024, 2:47 pm
...for this thread ...its not always easy
