I have an important thing tomorrow, appointment. One of the rules is I have to dress in clean clothes and stuff. Lately I've been getting it a little mixed up. I've been scared to get out of bed. Im forgetting the order of things. I haven't been showering. Ugh. Now I know I'm going to have nightmares about the appointment. That happens to me before them. I'm nervous. Im honestly a little terrified of the waiting room. I don't like waiting rooms. They trigger me, not the noise or anything just the room. I've been in a lot tbh and they always make me feel self conscious. I start to feel like everyone knows why I'm there and I start getting nervous, drink too much water etc. then be unable to talk properly at the appointment and they ask parents to talk.
I know I'm not supposed to worry about it so much. I just always feel like I'm getting in trouble. They talk to me about things that remind me I struggle. I'm just so anxious lately anyways. I didn't even know about it either. Like I got a memo. Now I'm just feeling a bit of dread.
13 Dec 2024, 2:03 pm
