I will say this no one owes me anything. Now that we have that out of the way, I have been talking to a few people (about 5) mostly outside the country. I have met the majority of them in person, and will move to a place closer to them, but more for work and entrepreneurship than solely them, but it ties it together nicely. There are a few yellow flags here and there and one red flag. I plan to quit if this group does not work out.
With some of the yellow flags, I did get frustrated that my plan seemed to have holes in it, but still not going to cut contact over that. The red flag is a bit worrisome (reminds me of my exes that were self absorbed), so may cut down, but want to give someone their day in court so to speak.
But the thing that gets me is a lot of American culture is spreading, so the culture I dated my ex in pre covid is a lot different and in many ways narcissistic. Many people have higher standards and it makes it harder, but I did have a few nice conversations with women, but sadly I don't think she had a WhatsApp. So I don't want to be totally negative.
But more so Stateside, lately I have felt pushback when trying to apply to jobs or approach a woman. They are cordial, so not mad at them, but I am trying to improve my lot in life and they seem to gatekeep that (honestly thinking more jobs but still). Add in rudeness, lack of manners, and a society that seems to have its hair on fire, and I don't seem why I should strive for anything anymore (in the US). If I keep getting no, no, no, then what is there to work towards and why even try to improve if people with half the effort advance in their career, while I am stuck someplace because unemployment rates went from 2.0 to 3.4%. once I take care of some bills, I don't seem why I should do more than the bare minimum and pay more taxes and expense more effort to a collapsing society that seems like it passively dislikes me in multiple areas. That is not to say I would not in another country, but I don't want to contribute in any way to a society that holds me down. This is related to dating as it seems like there is little reason to advance (especially with the social struggles that work has) without a family or other reasons. I would like to fly or maybe own foreign property, but I feel like a foreign job could get me there faster.
27 May 2025, 1:09 pm
