Andrew's Memorial Show

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My friend and bandmate Mikay recently joined two bands, one of them recently lost their bassist Andrew Waymon to cancer. I didn't know the guy, but Mikay knew him and I wanted to meet some new people, be there for my friend, and see some live music. At first I just kinda stood around, I waved at Mikay, and that was it for social interaction for a bit. Mikay finished her solo set and then I watched the second band "Sick Moses" play, they were really good but I wanted to sit down for a second so I went outside and sat on this plastic couch-type thing they had. Mikays boyfriend Billy approached me with a bag of snacks and we talked for a little bit, offering me some barbeque flavored hot Cheetos, to which I declined. After that he got up and went back to talk with Mikay and their friends. Eventually they all moved near me, and Mikay said "Atticus. Stop being awkward." So I got up and stood with them while they talked, it was really uncomfortable and I started worrying about if I was standing right, or if I looked stupid. Dylan (one of Mikays friends) shook my hand and we introduced ourselves to each other, he was there with his girlfriend Amber. She asked if I had a vape, and when I said no she asked if I knew someone who did, I also said no (I was not lying). She started violently shaking, and I thought she was about to freak out lol. Turns out she was just playing a joke on me, which I was relieved to learn. I had mostly just stuck with Billy (Mikays boyfriend I had previously mentioned) from that point on, occasionally speaking to people. I had also met their friend Isaac, who I repeatedly shook hands with and said "hello."
Like we'd just shake hands over and over and say "hello," increasing the volume in our voice each time we said it. Overall I'm not sure that anyone there really liked me, atleast the people I did talk to. It's the most social I've been in a while, and it was hard not to be self conscious about the way I was presenting myself. Even getting myself to speak was difficult, and sometimes I'd say something too quiet and it would go unheard, I couldn't make myself repeat what I said. Social interaction is so scary man, like frightening but I'm getting somewhere with this I think. After the event I reached out to some of the people there (Dylan, Isaac, and Oli who I hadn't spoke to but was next to) so maybe we can hang out again, but like I said I'm not sure if they were pretending to like me or not. I'm not sure if I'm autistic but I've always had trouble talking to people, I'm not good in social settings. Throughout the entire time I was there Mikay would go "you look so awkward right now." That's all I really wanted to talk about. I apologize if this is incoherent, thank you for reading this far lulz.
Baibai!!

I'm sorry you got treated poorly, from what I see you did nothing wrong. You tried to be social at a social event, but sometimes it's not easy. Extroverts sometimes love teasing people who look uncomfortable, I hate it myself but it is what it is.

Oh she didn't mean to be rude, she was the person I felt most comfortable around at first because I knew her. She was just playing I think but thank you man, it's hard to tell what people really mean even from the simplest statements it's so stupid

^^My bad, it sounds like you had a good time all things considered.