I'm struggling with feeling attracted and infatuated with a friend of mine. He's a heterosexual Irish-British who's a few years older, right leaning like me, a proud UK nationalist. It's not sexual attraction, but I feel a strong love and infatuation I've never felt for another. We're both right leaning and he doesn't have an issue with me being gay and told me he only likes gays who are normal and not stereotypical. But I feel I could never tell him this because I don't want to make things awkward and ruin our friendship. We both have a love for Middle Earth and enjoy a lot of the same music. He enjoys Culture Club and loves Karma Chameleon. I have never had much in common with anyone, I feel he's the only one I can truly call my equal. I love him like my brother, but I also feel like I have a crush. I struggle with only feeling attraction to men who are straight, prideful, and nationalistic. I wish I knew how to stop these feelings, but I can't.
09 Jun 2025, 5:58 pm
