What’s on your mind? The Haven version.

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I am just getting glimpses but the situation with your neighbour sounds very very stressful, Rossall.

Trigger warning - touched lightly on a sensitive subject

I've decided to bring a full size can of Lysol, paper towels and masks with me whenever I go into a public building because thousands of filthy humans are already infecting everything around them with their filthy viruses and they don't even give a crap. We'll see who's laughing when they're drowning in their own filthy bodily fluids in the hospital with their bodies stuck full of tubes and hoses.

Wish I wasn't afraid to die so I wouldn't have to put up with the world's crap anymore.

Today I have been thinking that reconnecting with my parents was disastrous for my mental health but gave me access to money.

I've had such a luxurious comfy break-down.

If it had to happen (which it probably did in my case) I really couldn't ask for better.


Warm regards to Tamaya and lostonearth35. I am very sorry you have been feeling that way, lostonearth35, and that you have gone through so much, Tamaya.

This is a very sweet song about something difficult, i.e., bodies, love, comfort.

I happened to think about my experience with Christianity, and I really miss the sense of safety and togetherness it gave me. I wanted to find a small Christian prayer forum but couldn’t find one. I hope it can be small like WP, to avoid possible trouble.

The bit of my head that's going arrgh is waging a pretty fierce battle with the bit of my head that's going tra la la.

i've been feeling awful over how autism manifested in me vs how it manifested in most people i know with it being so wildly different. i feel alone and like a freak of nature because of it, doesn't help that i'm somewhere in the middle regarding support needs (it is glaringly obvious to others that i'm on that spectrum. i also don't mask so that Helps. lol)

i'm hyposensitive (not hypersensitive), i'm generally kind of loud (i can be overstimulating), i ... don't have ADHD (i got schizoaffective disorder instead. yippee), i'm high energy pretty consistently (everyone around me is more downbeat), i'm desensitized as hell to a lot of triggering stuff, i'm just ... weird (schizophrenia contributes i guess), i'm extroverted (everyone around me is introverted) ... it's a lot at once. i hate myself for other reasons but the fact that i couldn't even turn out anywhere close to my peers definitely makes everything worse.

go me.

Thinking about how meme coins were probably started by Wall Street shills trying to create a narrative that all cryptos are scams so they can go back to having a monopoly on currency, and so the government can freeze all your assets if they don't like what you're saying - something that keeping your money in crypto prevents.

I want to know what happened to Gabriela Rico Jiménez.

I feel reluctant to book any vacations away in case I come down with a flu or norovirus before flying out or while I'm there. I mean I know you'll say "everyone has that worry", well, nobody else really thinks about this the way I do. Viruses can hit you at any time, even if you practice good hygiene and eat the right foods, you can still come down with a cold or flu at any time. It's uncommon for me to get viruses, but the longer I go without having a cold the more I feel like I'm overdue for one. So if I haven't had a cold in like two years and then I book a vacation, I worry that my body needs a virus soon to get my immune system built up again or something.

If having a cold only involved fever, headaches, weakness and tiredness, I'd be more okay with it. But it's the stuffed nose I can't stand. It makes me feel nauseous and it's difficult to sleep at night. I always sleep with my mouth closed and I don't usually snore, but when I have a cold I can't shift all that mucus there no matter what cold remedies I take or how many pillows I have. Symptoms of a cold are stubborn and you can't do a lot about it until the cold goes.

My usual rhinitis attacks are different. Sure, they're annoying as hell and can also be disruptive when trying to sleep, remedies and propping up pillows are more likely to take some affect, also those attacks only last a few hours, not a few days. And it doesn't make you feel unwell either. Exhausted maybe from all the sneezing, but not at all unwell.

Things are going to be strange when I wake up tomorrow with nothing to watch. Life after the Olympics is dull for a few days. I guess I'd better get my laundry ready for tomorrow. I'll do that after my episode of Benson.

I love watching reruns of talk shows on YouTube. It's fun to see people having a worse day than I am.

I'm so tired if this existence that I didn't ask for nor want. I wish I was dead!