BillyTree wrote:
Go to a therapist and get help to change your behaviour?
I second the therapist advice.
But I'll attempt to share some thoughts, in case any of them feel possible for you right now.
I think it would probably be helpful to find another hobby or outlet. Maybe try drawing or colouring or painting? Making music? Singing? Dancing? Running? Going for a walk? Maybe make a list of activities you like doing (not sex) so you can focus away from it for a bit and hopefully that could help you understand more of who you are without physical intimacy with another person!
Have you tried journaling? Maybe start by writing what your feeling and also writing about what kinds of things you might enjoy doing with your life.
But if you had a therapist you could share things in a confidential environment and also get some perspective from hopefully someone who can help, or maybe point you to a better direction. Therapy likely won't be a quick fix for your difficulties but hopefully it could help.. maybe introduce you to some tools to use to help work on yourself.