romanax wrote:
My story may be hard to believe, but I never lie or pad my resume. Just recently, I started tracking better than ever. I survived the tragic loss of my wife, overcame anger management, stopped viewing myself as a victim, and became extremely articulate. I owe this to my Buddhist meditation practice, which has become a perfect storm. I have switched from being an introvert to mostly being an extrovert. I no longer fear meeting strangers. During meditation, I identified the block in my subconscious. I have become a risk taker.
There was a sequence of events: military service, a real job, a second real job, marriage, gender switching, and enlightenment. I am neither an optimist nor a pessimist; I am a realist. In my youth, I had no subjective reasoning, but now it has gone through the roof. I no longer fear failure; it is just wisdom for doing things better. As an Asperger transgender woman, dating is nearly impossible, but I quit fearing rejection.
I no longer believe that the objective world actually exists; it is just created by karma to make us feel good. One has to meditate for a long time to reach this conclusion. Things like love, compassion, mindfulness, and feelings are far more real and survive when we die.
Don't take my word for any of this; one has to contemplate reality for oneself. I can demonstrate the validity of my new capabilities any time in person. I am usually dead calm, and seldom suffer any nervousness or stage fright.
Romana
Karl Marx construed Hegelian dialecticism or Buddhism for that matter as standing dialecticism on its head. What that means is that all you search for is right in front of you, in the material world. If you maintain a constant logical approach to what you see and feel, you will actually expand your consciousness and achieve quite high states of dispassion or equilibrium. Mystic dialecticism is notoriously fickle which is why you get such absurdities as fascist Buddhists.
To fully immerse in mystic dialecticism one has to be one of our animal brethren who are pure non consciousness.