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I did not know about AS when I was having children either. During pregnancy I felt the best ever emotionally, although I had severe hyperemesis (9 months of puking any time of day). I don't recommend hospital births for someone with AS who does not like to be touched. I suffered from PTSD after my babies were born from the stress of the hospital staff and multiple strangers touching me. If I had it to do over I would try a midwife at home or birth center, at least then its just one stranger touching you.
I didn't know about AS either when I was pregnant with my two children. I always knew I needed to stay as far away from hospitals and doctors as possible, so both of my kids were born at home. My labor experience in each birth was pain-free (and that's without Lamaze classes, drugs, hypnosis, etc.)... except for the few seconds of discomfort when each child's head exited from me. I attribute it to being able to be relaxed at home without having strangers around me telling me what to do or touching me.
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"Has not my hand made all these things, and so they came into being?" declares the LORD. "This is the one I esteem: he who is humble and contrite in spirit, and trembles at my word." – Isaiah 66:2
How did you do go through labor without pain?
Did you still have prenatal care or did you go all those months without a check up?
My OCD was diagnosed after pregnancy. I always had a limited diet but during pregnancy there were times when I was only eating fruit and nuts because I felt all other foods were contaminated. I have improved but will never be able to eat the way I did before pregnancy. I lost a lot of weight.
I was very sick and exhausted and had black moods and thought about suicide most of the time.
Normally I find it hard getting through the day but it was hellish, it felt like a prison sentence and then when it ended I had a child I didn't want (at the time) and long lasting post-natal depression.
I am not dx, I have OCD, depression, anxiety which probably caused the symptoms.
I feel I will never recover from pregnancy that my mind is "broken".
Sorry, that doesn't help you. It helped me I've never been so open about it before.