CR, IMHO you haven't caused enough trouble!
Of course I'm just kidding. You probably know as well as I do I've caused a bit of trouble here and there occasionally, thinking at the time that it was others who were instigating. Over time I've always concluded it was a little of both. It always takes two to tango as they say.
In every case so far I've been able, with a little time off, retrospect and reflection, I've concluded that whatever caused the self questioning wasn't as big a deal as I thought.
This isn't the first time I've seen you raise the same sort of "self questioning." And a lot of us do the same now and again. In the end, as per usual, you're still here and as valuable in my eyes as you've always been.
I doubt you're going anywhere, even from this particular sub forum. Maybe a small break is sometimes a good idea. I had myself banned purposefully from the entire site for a while, a few months back for somewhat similar, yet somewhat different reasons, and it did help me. It's totally up to you what's best for you. Don't let us determine that for you.
Whatever you decide, most of us will be right here when you get back if you do decide to leave, and probably won't be offended if you do, or don't.
I've never been offended by you, and even those I have felt offended by, for the most part, probably didn't deserve it. "The moment" is just a moment. They all pass. Grudges are for those that have nothing better to hold on to. Sad for them, but not for the rest of us who have learned to let it go.
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I'm not likely to be around much longer. As before when I first signed up here years ago, I'm finding that after a long hiatus, and after only a few days back on here, I'm spending way too much time here again already. So I'm requesting my account be locked, banned or whatever. It's just time. Until then, well, I dunno...