kraftiekortie wrote:
How are the classes where you are? Are there lots of kids disrupting the class?
I know, when I went to high school, that I either 1. Could be part of the disrupting group; or 2. Amused by the disrupting group--thus, lowering my motivation as to that class.
Teachers who cannot control the class frequently have students who do not do well. They perceive the teachers as not caring about whether or not the class learns the material. This leads to apathy.
What I'm saying: it's not always the STUDENTS' fault. It could be the teacher as well. And it could be the material presented--I have found that many students don't find the general curriculum "relevant."
I think mayhem in the classroom, combined with apathetic teachers, is behind a considerable amount of low grades in high school.
In essence, it might not be the Asperger's, per se, which underlies the "slippery slope."
Have you any plans for what you want to do in the future?
Probably has to do with the constant disappointment I've faced in high school. I will be completely honest and say that, yes, it has ticked me off very much and made me develop a hateful attitude towards school.
I'll give my whole high school experience then:
8th grade:
Math: I tried the very best I ever have, and still only got a 'D' for effort and 'D' for achievement.
Science: I failed hard. I was not taught anything about science essays, like how to properly write a scientific report. They assumed I learnt it before high school, which I did not. D.
IT/Technology: Hated the use of technology, the programs would never save my fr*cken work but the teachers did not care. This also continued over into the 9th grade as well.
And just general frustration with everything. Severe bullying that was never fixed by anyone until the very last minute (as in, the day before the first day of school in the 9th grade).
9th grade:
Continued frustration in technology class and other classes.
10th grade: Was actually okay.
11th:
Good god..
The first math test of the year, I studied lots and i studied hard. I spent my whole weekend studying before the test plus a few days before that.
I was really confident and thought I had a good understanding of the material.
The majority of the class FAILED. One of the higher achieving kids got a 'C'. Everyone else C, C-, D+, D, D-, E+, or lower, etc. This other dude in my class agreed it was 'b.s'. He spent his whole saturday to study for that test and still failed hard. Throughout the year things improved but even when I studied 2 weeks before the test I'd still only get C-'s or Cs.
English class: My teacher was an incompetent fool. He was a young one, 28 years old.
The first assignment was a speech in front of the class.
Surprisingly considring my Aspergers I managed to do THE BEST one in the class. I was the most emotional and most confident in my speech. The entire class agreed I did the very best, no one disagreed. Most people believed I should have deserved an A. The teacher had originally given me an A-, but after seeing the results from the other classes, he marked me down to a B+. An ENTIRE grade down. His reason was that I 'did not make enough eye contact' when I in fact did. My friend (who was obviously in the audience) saw it himself.
Every other assignment he would never provide useful feedback. He would basically say 'You're on the right track' and then nitpick EVERYTHING. Me and my friend joked with his teaching style.
'You're on the right track, you just need to change everything, but still only pass with a C.'
I hate to sound irresponsible, but I'm not. It really was the teacher's faults.
Throughout high school I have gone the extra mile.
Last year I would extensively speak to my teachers outside of class or email them asking for feedback, I studied hard and tried hard. I don't even know how I managed to do it. How i managed to still pass even with the constant disappointments and hardships...
15 Apr 2015, 5:56 pm
