The Reality of Adults With Autism

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This is my reality as an autistic adult. I was hospitalized for over eleven hundreds days as a child in childrens mental hospitals. My disabling behaviors since I was pre-k, through elementary and middle school, and through hospitalizations from age 13 through 17, include things I do to this day, which I did in my childhood, including going some route, and then going back the way I came, through the same door(s), the same way. Do you know that most people do not do that, nor do they care about doing that? Also walking the outer and inner perimeter of places I go, for keeping separate from others in a concrete way. You see, I see my paths as an extention of me, and everyone elses paths as extentions of them, and I want my path separate from everyone elses paths. No acting here. No acting normal here. No inauthentic normal acted mask here. No sir. I walk backwards, or reverse my pivoting clockwise or counterclockwise at minimum, to reverse my paths. I reverse paths. I avoid people crossing my path(s). Any crossing of my path, hemming me in, or irreversible crossing of my path is a trespass to me, a violstion of my sense of self and a threat or assault on my boundaries of separation from others. And I have not yet mentioned my freezes for noise trespasses, except that I just did, mention it. But I did not explain it. JibetyFibets(a.k.a. FibetyJibets on quora), May 7, 2025