A standard that only those with excellent executive function can sustain.
To someone with crappy executive function, obviously it's toxic, very much likely born from developed emotional complexes.
Whether it's a compensation to their insecurities or an attempt to gain approval to whatever they're deprived of or your usual feel good ego.
But to someone who isn't; it's a challenge.
A challenge I couldn't take on right now.
Yet and yet, I've never actually been a perfectionist.
My then view of being a perfectionist also meant not having second to more chances, not having any allowance for anything else other than 'being perfect' and caring too much on perfectionism, along with the countless overwhelming crap I likely won't able ever to process -- and I don't want that kind of existence.
I practically survived in countless lucky leniencies, graces and mercies or even misunderstandings to let me get a pass on not-perfect -- something that most idea of a perfectionism cannot fathom agreeing to exist with.
I understand the want and insistence for rigidity, for the sake of accuracy and precision -- but I would know when and when not to no matter how much my neurology insist otherwise.