Trigger Warning:Yes, through out my life at various points ,from age 3 , choking by oldest brother while in the crib. Repeatedly . then from age 4 to 15 with repeated beating by him and other older brother,and gaslighting my parents into believing that something they stole or broke was my fault resulting in extra beatings by both brothers and parents when I tried to tell the truth,and locking in a small closet,by parents before I knew ,what a closets purpose was for .
It seemed to be a form of entertainment for second and third oldest brothers . developed vast array of allergies and asthma,at that time . Finally getting accused of stealing money from my mothers cash hideout,which I could not possibly reach, caused her many years later to think about , the taller older brothers culpability . Oldest brother as I aged and was in a bed, From ages 8 -13 would lean over my bed and choke me .Into unconciousness. And my credibility had already been destroyed by my 2 older brothers . Eventually asked parents if I could improvise , a bedroom of scrap things inside the unused very dusty ,unimproved garage . And did so.Oldest brother did not move out until he was 45, so all my growing up wa hampered. Then Mom, wanted to help me to learn to defend myself from strangers at about
15 yrs of age . And learned very well for about a year, until my mom got bored taking us , me and a younger brother to this class . Just before my 16 th birthday , In the living room of the family house while noone was about he came into the room while I stood across the room infront of a bay window. He started yelling at me, reasons unknown ,had not interacted with him for days .So , I did not just remain silent and called him a "prick" first time ever verbally retailiated
..had just lesrned a new word, a Prick, is a small hole in something, No idea,it meant anything else . He charged me to push me backwards. And I followed through with a practiced marshal art move threw him to the floor. He got up and ran out of the room, and told my mom, what I called him.And she asked me and I told her prick was a small hole. That ended the assaults with them.But prior to that, had been assaulted in grade school several time , punching me , and throwing me to ground in the playground of the school
and choking me , Then 2 x more as I got older by strangers , one angry man thought I cut him off. in traffic. And took a hammer to the window frame of my car.Police report gave no result Thats enough..sorry long , but details got ingrained very deeply . Harsh lessons for a young person. Pretty sure directly related to early Asperger's .
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01 Jun 2025, 7:23 pm
