Does anyone else have trouble remembering their childhood?

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^For many years this supposed autistic trait of "focusing on details over the big picture" made me think I was on the opposite spectrum of being autistic. I have always been like "I don't care about all these less important details. Just explain the general principle and give me the big picture!"

I have trouble remembering my childhood because of trauma mostly. I talked about this with my siblings and they are the same way. We collectively had about 10 good memories from the house we lived in for 8 years as kids.

We were in fight or flight mode the whole time, our bodies were just trying to survive.

This discussion is very interesting to me.

My memories also start at about 5. Nothing at all before that, but they're incredibly vivid from that point on: like others here I frequently experience them as hallucinations.

I also struggled to become verbal; it came very suddenly, but then capacity for verbal communication seemed to flicker off and on throughout my childhood and adolescence.

One of my earliest memories is asking, "Is it normal to be outside one's body all the time?" And then, "Is it normal not to be able to think 'I' or 'me'?" At that point, at about five, my memories of myself were of a 'she' not a 'me' who wasn't in my body but sort of hovering over one shoulder. Though I can't access those memories now.

I don't know in my case if it was autism or dissociation or weird/poor socialisation or...

I remember a lot from my childhood as if it only happened yesterday. Of course, it would be nice if I remembered the good stuff a lot more than the scary, painful, uncomfortable stuff. But that's how the brain works.

So much stuff from childhood I want to forget about.

I was usually happy as a little kid because I was allowed to be myself. But I still would have scary thoughts and other feelings I couldn't really explain. Also I cried a lot. I was always getting in trouble for crying too much. In December I would try to go through the whole month without crying because, you know, "You'd better watch out, you'd better not cry". Never worked.

A character that describes me a lot as a child is DW from the children's TV show Arthur. I was the stereotypical "annoying little sister" who sometimes outsmarted my older siblings. Well my sister was easy to outsmart because she had learning difficulties, and my brother sometimes was easy to outsmart because he was the quietest and the most well-behaved, so I managed to hog a lot of attention from both my parents. I was my dad's favourite, I know it.

I also have very few memories from childhood. For example, around age 10, I went on vacation to Washington, DC with my Dad but I cannot remember anything from it. Likewise, my Dad took me to Little League practice for the first and only (I never went to Little League again) time, but I can't remember what happened there.

I have a few memories from childhood. Though, naturally, they are getting fuzzier as I get older, and many of them were skewed by my perspective as a kid that would be different than if I was in that experience with the understanding I have now! I have a couple fuzzy memories from, my guess age 2 might be my earliest one, but if not, definitely age 3 or 4 because I have a memory from preschool. Some memories, I can't tell my age because my memory does not have a marker for that. Sometimes I have found I remembered something wrong, later on when I put it together and realized a detail does not make sense. I enjoy looking back at my childhood, I'm a very sentimental and nostalgic person. I have enjoyed taking pictures as long as I have had a camera, and I have enjoyed writing journals for a long time too.
Unfortunately, my journals from elementary school are pretty sparse, a lot of drawings mixed in with the writing, and I can't tell much from them. But they are enjoyable to read none-the-less!

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though i must say it is fading away a bit lately
i was more adult as child,
when i went first to school, 4y, i was surprised they were all very uncivilised
i didn't like holding hands with some for the skin texture they had,

The kitchen floor i remember the lino,
my bedroom and the wallpaper, the safe was in my bedroom, an enormous thing
my brothers slept in the next room in the old style bed in a 'wardrobe'

Torture by dentist was also on the agenda
one christmas, after yet another dentist that felt i needed more holes,
i was so feverish i heard singing, when there was none

All the stories about the war you heard, my parents were kids then
all the stories at school and in the books
- i have found the re-telling in the american wording- mid and later '70s a bit weird,
in hindsight its sus aswell, to the upcoming Eu-parlement,
why american re-telling and how do people get swayed to change their story to the greater narrative? (or why?)
Dad/parents threw me out when i didn"t want to vote/agree on a EU- planned agri-planning politics
in 79/ then germany was still under US supervision, and now germany rules blatently this whole EU thing,
nothing strange with that folks,
just a 'little' convenience set up for the banks and their feudal future plan

sorry, ramble over

I don’t remember much before age 7. I can remember the driveway of the house I lived in before age 5 and the street where the house was but nothing about the inside of the house or anything else.

My family moved from one city to another when I was 8 years old. I remember a very few things about life at the old house -- it's as if my memories start at age 8.

I remember 3

I can recall snippets of memories and several events as early as age 4.

Anything earlier that is in nonverbal stages/subconsicous only consists of emotions and sensations, with no 'story' behind it.

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