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that sucks!

...So , I am coming close to asking " The Question " of CCSF (And , maybe , check with other/s .) which will answer whether trying to go to CCSF for initial credits is of any use to my ambitions at all .

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

...Bluntly , I would like to go to uni - " standard " residential college - Because I WANT TO ! !! !! !! !! ! - I want to do what " I never had " at the " proper " age - I think , immediately , it would be an improvement in residential circumstances , and , yes , getting an education/credentials/knowing people - and residential uni status lets you concentrate on that , too ! !! !! !! !! !! I'm , bluntly , not likely to garner enough money soon that would let me get a car to drive to school full-time - but (never having gone to full uni ever , this is not " re-visiting " what I had before I NEVER HAD IT " THE FIRST TIME " that people remember fondly (I just a use of the phrase " college " in the song I am listening to on the LP I've got on , see my "
Song " post to-day for the album's identity )) educational grants would , in a uni situation - let me live more nicely than at , say , where I am now .

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

...And , to spell it out - To go to a residential uni , assuming that this immediate Greater Bay Area is ruled out ~ Then , I might have to go - Presumably , homeless . (O , does it seem romantic/" I ca have one more cred-building Incredib;e Journey before settling down ? Hee hee hee . I mean , ya know , there is REALLY not much choice for me .) to that other area I have picked out , say , and - even HL ? - somehow build up my CC credits there so that I could - I suppose in 2018 at the earliest for a Fall entry if I have to do this - go to uni starting then , having built CC credits up in That Other Area ?
I suppose - maybe - so . Anybody got any other suggestions ?
I do have a thought about whether , even if " academic " credentials at CCSF are not viable , I could do - what I assume are - " short of academic credentials " things there ~ Take these " Bonehead English " and " Bonehead Math " courses that everyone has to take (But would they be transferable , even in the sense of " You got them out of the way " everywhere ?) , and , I could take an absolute-beginners'-level Film course , even if that was not transferrable getting it out of the way would be extremely nice - But , what about my main ? here ?????????
If I want to goto uni it is looking like I would , " winning-a-game-show " good fortune aside , do what I described above .
Comments , anyone ???????????

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

...And , to spell it out - To go to a residential uni , assuming that this immediate Greater Bay Area is ruled out ~ Then , I might have to go - Presumably , homeless . (Or , does it seem romantic/" I can have one more cred-building Incredible Journey before settling down ? And have glorious Grandpa Hobo memories sitting by the campfire forever ? " Hee hee hee . I mean , ya know , there is REALLY not much choice for me .) to that other area I have picked out , say , and - even HL ? - somehow build up my CC credits there so that I could - I suppose in 2018 at the earliest for a Fall entry if I have to do this - go to uni starting then , having built CC credits up in That Other Area ?
Because , speiling it out/synopsizing it , to transfer your CC credits you have to be in an apparent " one-hundred-miles-or-so " general geographic area of the uni which you would like to go to .
I suppose - maybe - so . Anybody got any other suggestions ?
I do have a thought about whether , even if " academic " credentials at CCSF are not viable , I could do - what I assume are - " short of academic credentials " things there ~ Take these " Bonehead English " and " Bonehead Math " courses that everyone has to take , specifically the last CCSF catalog I reed said that - and I'll try not to refer to them that way to CCSF people ! !! !! !! !! !! Though I assume English would not be a problem for me , Math might require a Peter-Lawford-tutors-the-college-quarterback so he won't flunk out in the movie " Good News " sort of thing from me (But would they be transferable , even in the sense of " You got them out of the way " , everywhere ?) , and , I could take an absolute-beginners'-level Film course that could teach me The Basics especially regarding the modern DV that I suppose essentially everything pro is done on now , even if that was not transferrable getting it out of the way would be extremely nice - But , what about my main ? here ?????????
If I want to go to uni it is looking like I would , " winning-a-game-show " good fortune aside , have to do what I described above .
Comments , anyone ???????????

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

...I REALLY have extremely little money , Pied .
Just as it has occurred to me that I could not really do the " Take a road trip to check out colleges you are interested in " method for checking out possibe unis that New York times/Parade sunday magazine , et al , articles recommend - Well , if I chose an area/region , I guess I could , within that area , go around a little bit , even(??) homeless - Though if , like , I was being " shelter-housed " at that time (As I tend to imagine I might do if I did do that " go-to-another-area " plot .) , I couldn't , I am sure...
(I have just rewritten the post you replied to , Pied , to add a couple things to it... )

ASS-P wrote:

...And , to spell it out - To go to a residential uni , assuming that this immediate Greater Bay Area is ruled out ~ Then , I might have to go - Presumably , homeless . (O , does it seem romantic/" I ca have one more cred-building Incredib;e Journey before settling down ? Hee hee hee . I mean , ya know , there is REALLY not much choice for me .) to that other area I have picked out , say , and - even HL ? - somehow build up my CC credits there so that I could - I suppose in 2018 at the earliest for a Fall entry if I have to do this - go to uni starting then , having built CC credits up in That Other Area ?
I suppose - maybe - so . Anybody got any other suggestions ?
I do have a thought about whether , even if " academic " credentials at CCSF are not viable , I could do - what I assume are - " short of academic credentials " things there ~ Take these " Bonehead English " and " Bonehead Math " courses that everyone has to take (But would they be transferable , even in the sense of " You got them out of the way " , everywhere ?) , and , I could take an absolute-beginners'-level Film course tghat could teach me The Basics especially regarding the modern DV that I suppose essentially everything pro is done on nowm, even if that was not transferrable getting it out of the way would be extremely nice - But , what about my main ? here ?????????
If I want to go to uni it is looking like I would , " winning-a-game-show " good fortune aside , do what I described above .
Comments , anyone ???????????

What about going on a Roadtrip? Just a Idea. Maybe you can go on a tour bus.

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

...Maybe spelling out what I didn't before.........A major reason I would not want credits from CCSF that are only applicable here is that - They make a big deal of their credits being transferable to all?? UC (University of California - the " number 1 " C. state system) and CSU (California State University - the " number 2 "C. system) campuses - but , I believe I COULD NOT go to any UC of CSU campuses , the State of California feels I owe them a whole lot of money and I believe it might be exercised as " You can't attend any UC/CSU..." ! (That's why I stopped , entirely , buying Cali state lottery tickets I believe any winnings might be deducted/sucked up by Sacramento/Jerry)
Really briefly , from a whole lot of " being-homeless " tickets and hearings not shown up for and combined fines for the tickets and not showing up...Well , that is what led to the MLK Day 2013 arrest that started me on being in Santa Cruz County Jail more in 2013-2015 from what grew from/came after the initial arrest and , thouh it was switched from criminal to civil/bill-collecting level afterwards , it went UP and UP...when I went to WA State briefly I did try to switch my mail to there from the San Jose , CA , PMB I had had there but it did not follow me then and all my mail there never reached me...However , it may still be on - And the amount they were trying to dun from me was REALLY large !
Besides , acknowledging that I'm not likely to go to any " big name " unis in the CA system...Well , there goes UCLA or Berkeley ! - And , aside from that (a bit wistfully) ~ Though I had thought of going to UC Santa Cruz basically I left there (besides because of my health and wanting to pursue CCSF here) because things were totally burned out for me , or pretty much , " town " (not " gown ")-wise there , when I left , officially banned from many shops and I think officially anyway even still having this " stay off the main drag " police ban dating from my last jail-producing gig , THEN , anyway...So , that's rather over .

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

Did you catch this news today?

Two Homeless Men Considered Heroes ...

"The homeless men were going through the trash can looking for anything of value when they found the bag. The men realized the danger and took the bag to an area away from the train station and then alerted police.
A suspicious device found in a trash can near a New Jersey train station exploded early Monday as a bomb squad was attempting to disarm it with a robot, officials said.

The mayor said that the two homeless men should be considered heroes for their actions."

Click Here to Read About Two Homeless Men Who Are Heroes

The world is changing.
Everyone has something to offer ...
Including you ! !!

...Thank you , my posting time's waaay running out , acknowledgement here ! !!

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

On a topic that slave spoke about, I would suggest possibly starting a GoFundMe page. I just did a quick Google search and the homeless men that found the pipe bomb in the trash can have a GoFundMe page... that has racked up over $30 000 in 9 days.

Perhaps you could share your story on lots of other forums to see if anyone will be kind enough to pitch in a few dollars here and a few dollars there. It may at least help you start saving and maybe in a year or two you will have enough to start college.

...A problem for me there , unfortunately ~ is my ultra-minimal computer skills , when it comes to groups such as that (Many of which I do belong to) , putting together the basic touches on a page , like an icon , other stuff?? , really is beyond me This is why I have asked ~ with no success thus far ~ for people here to help me with improving my computer skills .
I am REALLY bad at those things (despite , obviously , knowing how to type and push " Post) .
Seriously , I cannot get some of the most basic 'Net stuff up ! !! !! !

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

Let us know what skills you want help with and I'll try to help you build those skills. You are a good typist and can express your emotions very well online, so that's a good start.

As far as getting yourself out there, it's very easy to sign up to a forum. You did it here and you can do it with basically any forum you choose. The more places you share your story to, the more people will potentially help you reach your goal. I don't know much about GoFundMe but I could possibly set up an account for you, that you can let people on all these forums know, so they can chip in with what they can.

...Thank you ~ but I wonder how much we could do from a distance , barring perhaps doing it real-time , and with a Skype component as well as both being on keyboards at the same time - We are so many time zones away from each other , and I have to use lab computers , there is no Skype here even if I could be there at a time matching wherever in AU you are .
Everyone here , even people who describe themselves as non-verbal/somewhat " slow " seem to write okay ~ I am not a trained typist , however , I have to look at the keyboard .

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

Here's the link to set up a GoFundMe account: https://funds.gofundme.com/dashboard/create. Once you have an account, it's just about:

a) Creating a post about your story, maybe a couple of paragraphs to a couple of pages long, and also explaining why these funds would be important to you.

b) Getting the word out there. Do you have any social media accounts? Sharing your story on the forums you visit (and others that we may have to think about), aswell as social media sites, should help.

To do these things, I don't think you need any more computer skills than you have. It's just about working out what to write - maybe writing some drafts and picking the best one would be good. I've checked and you don't need a bank account. You can have cheques sent to you. So hopefully your living conditions will remain stable for the next while, so any cheques can be sent to you there.