Did your Autism get better with age?

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Mine got better by a weird combination of;

Taking birth control pills to losen hormonal fluctuations and the emotional dysregulation that came with it. Should've taken it earlier than holding onto later because of age.

Yet I found that I also need like 1-3 month reset of this in order to be effective again so my body won't adapt to it.
My body adapting means going back to complacency and mood swings.


Lowering some internal guards by taking melatonin and meditating on it, but before that happens, I needed to get rid of my hormonal disruptors by taking hormonal birth control pills to make melatonin work.

Melatonin actually can help me find a stable sleep pattern and a routine.
However, it's as long as it works; meaning it's very dependent on my hormones.


Then by meditating with said internal barriers lowered, I processed stuck emotions since childhood. This is essentially self work. Because of said disruptors, I got less if not basically nonexistent space between me and my emotions and thoughts despite all the awareness and knowledge.

Increased mental and emotional regulation, attentional control, and loss of 20+ years of unwanted certain patterns and habits that I've been fighting but failed, just naturally followed without an effort.


Then accidentally acquiring that finally worked with my biophysical disruption related to immune resposes by taking an anti-asthma inhaler.

This was found because of a coincidence.
Because for some frustrating reasons unknown to me, antihistamines just doesn't work and never had anything reliable to manage chronic rhintis for basically 25 years. This was last month.

My major source of irritation and exhaustion lost. Didn't knew I've been dealing with minor chronic pain and fatigue.
As opposed to getting all exploding in anger every other week, waking up already frustrated and 2-3 steps away from meltdown.


Sure I'm great at dodging sources of meltdowns to a point that acute and chronic anxiety can willfully end by myself without suppression or avoidance (in which I already solved basically permanently before adulthood) and is nothing compared to "this" (chronic stress that people mistakes for anxiety) in my opinion.



For now, I'm somewhat still processing and recovering from all those years of long time and unwanted habits of coping with crap.

All of this progress, in span of less than 2 years now.
I'm a step away towards my true goal.

Finding the mystery of what muddled my needs as an autistic, as opposed to support needs of nothing to do with being autistic but more to do with having this particularly neglected body.

I finally found a way to actually get rid of my main sources of burnouts.
Sources of burnouts that any people did not see or refuse to see, because all they see is autism.
That all I need was some attitude change or an antipsychotic. That all of this is "anxiety" or "being a part of autism" -- **** that, I was right and everyone is all wrong and it was proven.

Ignore my rants of having a female body, dismiss my unmanageable chronic rhinitis, downplay my sleep issues.
Then accuse me of being in denial of me being autistic.


Another was, just a week ago; trying a supplement -- CoQ 10. Tried first time and it finally worked for me.

And it's basically my own version of caffeine (caffeine itself isn't reliable for me); helps me wake up, stay awake, not feel downtrodden... I'm ready to replace sugar along with less healthier other cravings with this.

Then I'll still be finding more that may work for me until I can finally feel more like myself.


And autism? My autism is passive. Because I make it so.

The most notable at the moment is a week now; stimming less.
Not my intention. I don't care how much I stim or how.
It's happening because what matters is that I have less crap to deal and need to regulate now.

I never needed to touch on that except over language processing and quantity related processing related issues like short term, working memory along with something like reaction time.
And it hadn't changed a bit.

I've yet to even recover having any special interest for the last 6 or so years now I guess?
I don't see losing special interest as an improvement. It's from a burnout.


And all this slicing in the middle stuff to a point I know what stress is from anxiety, separating social from emotional, like how I know what love is from sex and romance?
Or even several levels of "feeling nothing"?

People just not getting it and overall neurodivergent resources being not enough for me.

Because my main problem, the stuff I need to "manage" is barely about my neurodivergence.

I need to get on this level. What's the path? Btw, I'm not female, so the birth control stuff may not be part of it for me.

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I suspect some people now that I am old put my oddities down to my advanced age, rather than ascribing them to my neurodiversity. So I sort of have more personal privacy, and I like that.