Killing yourself

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I still want to kill myself. I just don't act on it. Don't act on those desires, and you'll be fine.

I don't want to kill myself, but something about it does seem interesting like, "I wonder what it would be like?"
A long time ago I felt I wanted to, and I've seen countless deaths in videos enough times to not be phazed by it anyway.

^ I've thought that myself. If I knew I could come back I would so I could see what it's like.

I have actually been thinking of killing myself in the last 24 hours. I don't have any intention of doing so but the thoughts have crossed my mind.

To be honest, if I had any means of suicide, I'd implement them.

Have you seen a shrink and talked with them about this? If not I really would if I were you.

Of course I have. I just lied to them.

Still have the urge after all these years. Put a gun to my head when I was 22 because there was just so much pain in living. I'm not sure exactly why I didn't pull the trigger. Things haven't changed much since then. Abusive people seem to find me where ever I am. Now though, I wish I had a time machine & could be like the terminator & seek out my younger self...as a child & blow her away. I have often felt the world just might be a better place if I were not here to screw it up.

If I had a time machine I would go back to try to fix my mistakes, but I'm sure I would still f**k it up somehow lol. So I agree, maybe it could be better if I could just end it then to avoid problems in the future. However there has always been this profound belief that besides the fact I'm a screw up, there is also something very important about this existance, and there are very important things to personally gain from it. So suicide for me is more of a fantasy than a future reality.
At the same time technically since I know the basics on "the meaning of life stuff", I know it wouldn't make a real difference if I did kill myself.

Living with the memories I have and whenever I see myself in the future it makes me want to either fall on a sword or put a gun in my mouth. Least thats how I feel when I get very down.

Amen, sista.

have you talked to any of your family about your feelings anyone you can trust gets some advice from the people that love you let them know theres somthing wrong even if you think noone care if you die or will be sad you are r=wrong because the second you joined this site you have everyones friendship including mine i hope you dont kill yourself!! !! !! !! good luck ! !! !! !! !! believe me i know ehat your feeling i alo went through a phase like this it will pass you will see

you seriosly needhelf thats not normal

I have wanted to kill myself since i was 8 the only thing that has stopped me from doing it is 1. my mum coming into my room every 10 minutes when i was really depressed/suicidal 2. meds 3. my little brother

I will still want to kill myself even if I have found my true love, in the future. She, like me, would also want to do it, and after some time of living together in the current life, we would, in youth, join together in a romantic suicide pact. Although the current life holds its own beauties, as well, "death" is just so much better, in the case that you die together with your true love. Limits of the current life are removed to a great degree, and suffering ceases to exist. Although it wouldn't just be endless joy in the afterlife, the troubles in "death" would not ever be of the magnitude of those in the current life, and would only ever lead to good feelings in the end. Any troubles would only be present to act as a weight, so you would keep appreciating that which you love, and you therefore would appreciate these quite manageable troubles, as well; all would just be present to improve the love between you and your true love. I look forward to this day so much. I unfortunately have not yet found my true love, but so far I've been together with two girls who agreed with me in these beliefs, so I remain optimistic that I may find my real true love, with time, and in my current life. These past girls eventually ended up being unfaithful to me, but at least I never even met either of them, so I never ended up losing my virginity. Now, had that happened, I would be dead, right now, since virginity is endlessly important for true loves, as losing it to your other half means that your souls become one at that moment. Most would say that I romanticize too much over this, but they would be wrong. I know I am right, and I know there is a girl out there who fully agrees with me on these things.

I wanted to kill myself yesterday, actually... thought that I would kill myself a bit after spending Christmas/yuletide/jul with my parents and sisters, if I hadn't yet found my true love, by then. Today, however, I feel kind of blank, which I appreciate. Maybe I will even feel somewhat optimistic, tomorrow. However, as for entirely getting over the suicidal thoughts that stem from living my life alone... those feelings only disappeared once I found my ex, and my ex before that. Now, after it ending with my last ex, I am back where I was, before, with my mood fluctuating between suicidal and hopeful. Anti-depressants wouldn't be able to do a thing to me, either; the only cure for me is finding my real true love.

I have wanted to for about five years now, and I am certain that whatever path I take in life, it will end with me putting a gun to my head. I hope that every other person who feels like this gets help, though. I hope that no one else has to ever go through with it.

I think about suicide all the time. I'm not even sure I'm depressed. It's just that when I do or say something that I regret (it could be totally inconsequential to others), I feel like a "bad person." It's like I feel guilty or ashamed of making what I perceive as mistakes. This feeling is always in relation to the idea that I've somehow hurt or offended somebody else; I never get this feeling without some kind of social interaction precipitating it. Anyone else feel this way? It's torturing and difficult to ignore or process. I intellectually know that I don't need to beat myself up, but emotionally I can't seem to stop. Help?