My anxiety has hit the roof

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I understand that she could be anything but the coronavirus; drunk, drugged up, depressed, early stages of pregnancy, period cramps, even in the middle of having sex.
But during this time I am very paranoid, especially when more people keep dying from it in 24 hours. I know I'm young and don't have any physical health problems but people as young and healthy as me are still dying from it.

I know that I would feel less affected by all this if I didn't have to go out and be near people. Even if I wash my hands and don't go too near people I'm still scared I might catch it. But unless we will get our groceries and other essentials like prescriptions delivered, the responsibility of going out to get these essentials rests on my shoulders. If my boyfriend never smoked to begin with he wouldn't have COPD and probably wouldn't have to self-isolate. But now whenever I mention smoking, it stirs up an argument. So I've just to keep quiet about all that and watch him destroy himself. Fun days.


I will try this Amazon thing but I'm not holding out any hopes.

I don't want to add to your stress but if he is truly self-isolating for medical reasons, then you can't go near him or share the same dishes, towels, food, etc. Every time you leave the house and come back home you stand the chance of infecting him, and he'd have to start 14 days all over again. (Please don't panic -- it's rare and unlikely, but that's the rules). Is he completely apart from you living and sleeping in a different part of the house? I won't even watch television with people who are medically self-isolated. I hope his family can find a way to get food and supplies to him at the door. The burden shouldn't be all on you, because you shouldn't be coming and going when you live with him.

You will get through this. It's terribly hard and it sucks, but you're doing the best you can under the circumstances and you've done everything right so far. Just please set aside different dishes and towels for each of you, and make sure you have both showered / washed hands and brushed teeth before you get near for bed.

Keep trying the help lines you have tried. Apply multiple times if you can (for vulnerability). Place some orders for whenever you can even if it's pretty far in the future.

I am much in the same boat with vulnerable people and too many responsibilities but I know I'm doing the best I can.

I hope you enjoyed your Coke.

Thank you.

I did send an email to the Samaritans in Essex, explaining my situation and expressing that I am on my knees begging for support. I will be much more relaxed if I knew I could get essentials delivered so that I don't have to go out and face the supermarkets.

But at the moment I don't have any hope for anything because I know that about 70 million other people are having the exact same problem as me and are also all trying what I'm trying.

I just wish I was about 8 years old, happy to have all this time off school and having no responsibility of anything outside the house.

I know the feeling. It's overwhelming. I also had two sewage floods in my home this month, my ground floor was gutted by a demolition crew (which now closed and isn't repairing -- my floors and walls are torn out), my property was excavated outside because I had to pay for a public sewer repair, my car died for 10 days, I had no water at all, no heat, no laundry, no power, and then no hot water, for rotating cycles spanning two weeks. Then this on top. I had to cancel airline tickets for a holiday, and also fly someone home from Australia at top price on an emergency flight, with nowhere for him to stay because of quarantine. I'm juggling the needs of family members who are vulnerable and high risk, in isolation. I can't cross paths. It's insanity. I can't see my boyfriend at all, for the foreseeable future. All I can do is laugh sometimes, and put on music that I enjoy.

Could you make a fun playlist so you feel more inspired?

I say this story so you know you aren't alone. We're all in this together and we will all survive.

I can't listen to music because for some reason it makes me feel worse, as it reminds me of how everything was before this awful time.

I'm just so scared because Italy is in lockdown yet they still seem to be getting more cases and deaths daily, and they're saying that it's going to happen to the UK. I know most of the people are frail, elderly people but not all are, also I don't want the elderly to suffer. Those folks must feel so ill.

All I want to do is to stay indoors and not have any responsibility, then at least I'll know that I am 100% protected from this plague.

^ two parallel thoughts about the music: you could use YouTube to find music you haven’t heard before so it doesn’t have prior associations...
Also: I’ve heard audible are doing free audiobooks you can get in your phone, not music but it’s an escape of a sort... (does involve a sign-up account though)
Thirdly (! ) if you get BBC sounds app on your phone and don’t tell it where you’re located you’ve got access to all the programming of all national & local stations. Some of the programme archives go back to the eighties.

If you find things to listen to on your phone with headphones then you don’t have to hear all the gory details of the news.

I wouldn’t be surprised if stricter measures again are imposed soon... enjoy being outdoors in the spring while you can! ( I mean stand out in the sun on tea-break etc. Little things I know, but not nothing)

Now the government is saying that this nightmare is going to go on for another 6 months. I can't miss out on the whole summer. I wanted to go to the beach, go on vacation, see friends, go shopping, and spend countless sunny weekends in my mother's beautiful garden with all my family. In 6 months it will be October and so now when we are allowed our freedom back it will be the onset of winter and Christmas. I don't think I want to take part in Christmas this year. I want to go on a vacation to somewhere hot to make up for lost summer days, but guess what? Millions of other people will be having the exact same idea so all the flights to the hot countries will be full.

Sharing this country with 66.44 million other people is really impossible right now.

If I had a boyfriend I’d be wearing skimpy summer clothes for him even if it is in the house. At least you have that joe. But yeah this really sucks I have to agree. As a Canadian I’ve been in the house all winter for most of the day. It was too cold to go anywhere. And now that it’s spring there’s nowhere to go. I was going to go swimming.

I have been told that 6 months of this nightmare is just the worst case scenario. But it didn't sound like that in the article I read about it. It sounded more like a fixed arrangement. But people have said to me that it didn't take China 6 months to get through so why would it take the UK 6 months? I hope that they are right, because I'm sorry but being forced to stay in for 6 months is going to cause more problems - and deaths - than this stupid coronavirus will. You cannot force 66.44 million humans to keep indoors, stay 6 feet away from other humans, have limited and scarce groceries, have no toilet paper, and have the streets quiet and empty - FOR 6 MONTHS. Yes I know it's to save lives but it's putting people in danger in OTHER areas. For example, in the UK they are cancelling all chemotherapy treatment for cancer patients until this ends, so that's putting some lives at risk for a start.

A lot of people don't seem to understand social distancing and aren't taking this pandemic seriously. Too many selfish people out there not staying in which will kill people like my parents. We need a proper lockdown. Non essential workers shouldn't be made to go in.

Even young healthy people are dying.

Lack of testing is a huge concern. This murderous government is clearly still aiming for 'herd immunity'.