Josh, this is not meant to offend your or belittle your own reality tunnel at all, I completely respect every being’s right to their own objective reality, and I adhere to the philosophy of universal agnosticism and the validity of any particular perception of the ”real”, no matter how weird or incredulous. This is not criticism, just honest observation and advice.
My outside observation (I could be wrong, first to admit that
) is that you are a 16 years old, DXed with Asperger’s and has a mother worried about your deep involvement in Devils and the Occult ect... Now I don’t doubt your ability to will yourself lord over your own personal Hell, (especially one patterned after a 14th century allegory). Anything is possible for a strong enough will, which I don’t doubt you have. What worries me though, is your assertions that you are so far above the abilities of others and that you have come into the power to rule all, and have become an elevated being. This is an easy trap to fall into, and it can lead to isolation, despair, failure, and even decent into incurable madness (I’ve seen it happen). The Occult can be a very dangerous thing if you get too reckless, over-confidence is a fatal flaw. It takes years to reach the level of an elevated master, and this usually much to the surprise of the practitioner! Humility and acceptance of criticism and the willingness to self-criticize are the only way to grow. The powers that enslave the word and keep most of its inhabitants asleep and unaware (who I will refer to with the Gnostic term: Archons) would like nothing more for you to fall into this pit, just another promising initiate down the drain. Don’t let the Achons of Vanity, and Lust ruin your quest for power or your sanity. Varying your activities could help: explore Shamanism, practice Raja yoga, try neuro-linguistic programming, learn the discipline of DE, read a Robert Anton Wilson book, meditate daily, go out and get laid in the physical plane with no strings… whatever you want. Experiment. F*ck around. Become your mirror image for a day, week, or year. Pretend to become one of the close-minded a**holes that you hate (you’ll learn more about yourself and your motivations). But don’t take my word for it: do what thou wilt, that is the whole of the law. But make sure you’re having fun, that’s the most important thing.
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"He who sees from the side has eight eyes"