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Had you something simular to this happen?
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Don't Know? 9%  9%  [ 2 ]
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get the f**k out of my face, Ghosthunter! 0%  0%  [ 0 ]
get the f**k out of my face, Ghosthunter! 0%  0%  [ 0 ]
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01 Feb 2006, 4:56 pm

Febuary 1st, 2006

For every good there is a negative.

Things I felt acutley aware of! wrote:
Being in a strange place and being aware of your
flaws makes you more hyper-critiical of yourself.

My ADA card thing didn't sink in deep until today.
I may save by paying 50¢, but the price is telling
someone you have it and getting that "pathetic look".


past events wrote:
When I was about 8 I remember being tauted as a
retard and that really hurt my self-esteem. Children
can be cruel for their honesty in observation and not
hiding it.

I had stiches in my head when one threw a rock at me,
and remember crying alone in the field often at that age.


present day wrote:
I have lived life blindly and not known why. Maybe that
was better. Nothing is worse than being your own critic
and appologizing like a idiot just opening your damn stupid
mouth(one thinks when they feel criticized by a glance.)
and only a f**k head would continue, thus that person is a
retard called stan.


Why so harsh on my self? wrote:
I am not always aware of how others see me in a familar
location, but in a strange one is is like reading a f*****g book
and wonder why the f**k did I say that?

A)...I am first loud in a quiet place to be heard inappropriately
fo information.

B)...I am tooooooo quietttttt to express my thoughts like a
stupid f**k head.

....Back to the story!

I finally find the campus and I am disoriented by it's 3 buildings
and when I open my f*****g mouth I am choppy, appologetic,
and embarrased to ask for directions.

I finally find the admissions office and find them unhelpful, so I
MAKE MYSELF CLEAR!

I finally find the drop in center and find that the minute I open
my f*****g mouth the thought I wanted to say becomes
a loud choppy retards expression, what a f*****g RETARD !
I THINK to myself.

I finally get to see a coucelor and find out that the catalogue was
improperly detailed, = see pg 40, not 200+ for cost saving facts.
He is dominated by my intense thoughts and has little room to speak.
I dominate his time and he tries to shoo me from his office when
he feels he is satisfied with his responses. I slightly internally
protest and become the f*****g APPOLOGETICD ASSHOOLE
I AM.


Now in the first nearby coffee shop wrote:
I am emotionally disheveled by my behaviour that comes out,
versus my rational thoughts that want to be conveyed.

Now I am in defensive mode emotionally but still enjoying
the walk and exploration. Then I non-shuluntly tell the
young lady at the coffee shop things about me and the
trip-AS IF SHE f*****g CARES, WHAT A s**t HEAD I CAN BE.


Then the bike shop coffe shop wrote:
Here is where I learn good facts but come off embarrased and
quirky from within and that is being physically, not verbally
presented-AT LEAST I WASNT' BEING A RETARD!
They give the "he is strange look"


then the getting lost and disorienteed by north, south.... wrote:
I am not able to navigate to the moderately successful
and calm Wilde Roast place. I then make my post of good
things only and let the events ride their course.

In heading back I go on the wrong side of the forked road
with 2 bridges of opposite sides. Now I am on the outskirts of the
other side and not aware where the lightrail is so I can download
the bad from the trip. f*****g LOST but once I am somewhere
and 5th I locate the lightrail and try to bum a cigarette from suits(business
men). I say hi! smile, and ask for a cigarette and that is ok!

Then go in a tangient about the trip completely unaware of
their business time! WHATE A AFUCK HEAD I CAN BGE!111

Then renavigate to the lightrail station! and realize I covered a
good part othe other other non-sky side that I didn't start on.

LOUSY SENSE OF DIRECTION!

then I see 2 signs that say metrodome, ?.... and not sure
which one is Bloomington. I shout to a guy when I am
inthe impass between the tracks and he says' the other side
he was on(my left).


Then he sees me trying to figure out the f*****g ticket machine.
he presses the adult button and I say embarrasingly that I
use a ADA card and he gives me the pathetic look of 'THATS WHY!"


I AM SUCH A RETAREDFDNF,DKLFJKDJKFJDKJFDKS

X Sorry for being negative!

Hmmmmmm?

Perhaps you fellow planeteers can describe embarrasing situations?
I volunteered my part,

Sincerely,
Ghosthunter



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01 Feb 2006, 5:43 pm

I especially hate how you make perfect sense, and you know the other person is the one being a retarded, but yet you're singled out as the "weirdo." But if that person would stop and think, and rationalize the situation, they would know that you are right/your motives.



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01 Feb 2006, 5:47 pm

I went out to do a few things yesterday (a little shopping and walk the dogs) and left the front door wide open. It's the second time I've done it in 18 months. It's bad enough when you come home and see that the door is wide open, but unfortunately I have a new lawn mowing man (the previous one sold his business to this new guy) who hadn't turned up when he was supposed to, a couple of days earlier - so I come home to see both the door wide open and the new mowing man and his assistant doing the lawns. They were practically finished so they'd been there for half an hour or so. Ugh, you have to wonder whether they went in and had a look. Nothing was missing.

The reason I left the door open was that I usually get the dogs into the car first, then go back and lock the door, but although a thought popped into my head like "there's something you've forgotten, it involves getting out of the car and going back towards the house" I thought it was water I had forgotten (I keep a bottle in the car for the dogs) so I just refilled the water bottle at the garden tap, got into the car and drove off. duh.

I'M A RETARD TOO!



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01 Feb 2006, 6:31 pm

You're not a retard; you're just up against Registration. The great Registrarosaurus. The procedure is hard on everyone, and for us, it's worse.

Take heart. On every campus, new freshmen are thought of as retards until the first week or so of classes. It's entirely situational.



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01 Feb 2006, 6:40 pm

First thing:

If you are going away from Apple Valley, then you are going toward the Metrodome and Downtown. If you are going toward Apple Valley, you are going to the Airport and Mall of America. I hope this makes more sense.

The truth of the matter is, you cannot control others. They will always have opinions and while we can hope to try to change those opinions, we still have to put up with them. You now know how it feels for example to a black man when a white person suddenly crosses the street or gets followed in the store. Use this view to do good in the world and hopefully you will run into people who see you for the person you truly are rather than the person they see on the outside.


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01 Feb 2006, 11:40 pm

Ghosthunter- I feel for ya. Just focus on your objectives and don't worry too much about hassles and other's opinions. Pretend it's a maze or video game that you have to figure out. You have a goal to obtain; a destination to reach. No matter what obstacles stand in the way, you will succeed. If one person does not understand or give you what you need, go to the next person and try again. There will be some understanding people along the way and alot of jerks. Hey, they're jerks, so why should you care what they think? (I know, easier said than done.) It sounds to me like you did succeed in the end. (did I just say, "in the end"? Oh my God! I'm starting to sound like Kev729! I've got to get off this planet before I am totally assimilated!! !)


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01 Feb 2006, 11:52 pm

Chuckle! Assimulation is omnious!

And thanks, the mood rode itself out once I wrote this piece of
expression work.


Sincerely,
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01 Feb 2006, 11:58 pm

Good. I guess all of those bleeping F-words kinda cleared the air for you. Luckily, I'm a sailor or I would have been offended.


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