paranoia: trying to crack this one.. progress

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I think I've got it this time.

When you are out.. you might see people you don't want to see. Its illness I know.
It might even affect you, have an impact.  
You might go home and stew on it.

Trick number 1.:     Do not have prejudice (or hate)....your own snowballing fear scares you no-one else. People are not out to get you.  Prejudice of others only incriminates you in your own mind. They're evil - people really won't like you if you think that of others, they are one of them and will side with them.
1a.: If you are around others- public relations. Benevolence. Non paranoia- the world does not revolve around me, I don't believe that.
1b.: If you are on your own- who cares.. only effects you if you are around others.
Number 2 (new trick):   Don't worry, be happy'. I might see someone... might not - need to address the fear in your mind..... locate where it is affecting your behaviour.... cease behaving like you are expecting someone to jump at you from round the corner.  'Que serra serra, whatever will be will be'. If I see someone, who cares....I wasn't thinking about it. It did not affect me. Never ruminate, never stew....eliminate all influence on your life... focus away...still working on this one.
number 3: people have better things to do than make your life hell, but its difficult to convince yourself of this....your own conscience is the problem. Conscience is the weight of whole society - where the problem lies... individual people rarely are. Sometimes... but most of the time...you are tired.. that is the problem.. not thinking straight. And, next line:
Some abusive people make you paranoid... need to stop the world spinning every time. As long as the general direction is the right one... life is more bearable because the outlook is bright.

Personally, I'm gonna get a job. So I can feel better about myself. Sure up my path.. and then I can continue to do something constructive with my life.
trick 2 addition:

sing 'suicide is painless, it takes on many...' - the intro song for mash (cult medical tv show)

any help appreciated with trick 2

The scene from the movie where "Painless" (the dentist) commits "suicide" is a classic!

[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BVUXPjFWfX4[/youtube]
Black capsules--yay!

Wish I could help with the paranoia issue, but I haven't felt paranoid around people since I quit smoking pot some years ago ("OMG, they know I'm stoned!").

If people were to throw money at my feet, I might even sing "Suicide is Painless" for them, but I'll have to learn the guitar part first.

I am paranoid.
I realize.

What is upsetting me now.
Is that I lost my big shot in life because I was mentally ill.
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maybe I'm sad because of all the time I had wasted.....people don't have it in for me.
I was blaming the wrong people, living in the margins of society not that bad. I could have done it this way all along. and do something constructive.

Despite popular wisdom, opportunity does not knock only once--it beats your door down if it needs to find you.

Yeah you're still in the middle of your big shot Toto you don't miss it til you're in a box.

Reflectin gon mistakes is only useful for aspies when you do it analtytically, take the lessons you learn from your mistakes and apply them to future relations. If you relive your mistakes in an emotional way you're only causing more trauma for yourself.

We're completely opposite to NTs in this way I think. The standard PTSD treatment of reliving the traumatic events is very harmful to us simply because of the way our brain works in my opinion, we're already reliving the events all the time anyway which in turn causes more meltdowns and the vicious circle is complete and able to carry on indefinitely. Remove yourself from the circle.