a pattern: parent has expectations - expectations go unmet - parent feels frustration and disappointment - parent expresses or tries to suppress (yet really expresses on an unspoken level) disappoinment - parent lowers expectations .... this negative feedback loop becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy over time.
there is the YOU your parents expect and the YOU they think they see (neither real) as projected onto and experienced by you, and the YOU who is the real YOU.
the three YOUs are experienced as one, resulting in inner conflict: anxiety and depression. with experience and maturity the real YOU will emerge no longer confounded with the projected YOU images.
in a way there is an advantage to this. if a person meets or exceeds parents expectations the projected parental YOU images will be in harmony and the real YOU may never emerge from this positive illusion.
on the other hand, if parents have low or zero expectations so the projected YOU image is shallow or weak, the real YOU is never challenged to exceed status quo so potential is not realized and real YOU may never emerge.
so to summarize anxiety and depression are healthy signs that you are real.