I'm so depressed

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I'm here in my parents house alone with no one to talk to. I'm so bored that it's depressing. My fiance' isn't with me she's working at a work site in Warm Springs Voc Rehab center and I'm stuck here without her. I've been without her being with me for almost a month. I used to be with her almost 24/7 because I was at that same center. I'm supposed to get some mental theapy, and other help but there's a lot of waiting going on. I'm sick of waiting. I'm not really a patient person. Besides all that I truely have Major Depression. I'm missing her so very badly. I'm trying not to give up on life. I just don't know if I can hang in there much longer. Could anyone just comfort me?

This day will pass and you will feel better and you will get the help you need. The trick is getting through today. Can you get yourself out of the house and do something? Maybe go for a walk in the sunshine? Sitting all alone in the house while you are feeling this way is no good for you. I looked at Cave Spring on the internet and I see you have a cave there that might be fun to go out and see.

http://www.romegeorgia.com/cavespg.html

I checked your weather and it is sunny and 51 degrees Fahrenheit so you might want to bring a sweater or jacket.

http://www.weather.com/weather/local/USGA0100

It will get better.

Yeah I hope so. I called my fiance' today at 12:30 but that's not the same as actually being with her. I miss her so much. I know we'll get married some day but right now it's really hard. Thanks.

I had another kind of knock down drag out arguement with my father. I ended up beating things that don't belong to me with a walking stick. I was really sad and angry at the same time. My dad had left before I began breaking things. The things he said was like he just knocked the wind out of me. I felt when he did it that he threw back in my face the shock in knowing that I probably destoryed the future that I've been planning when I had many melt downs in that Voc Rehab Center that I was in with my Fiance'. I just can't take another day a freaking another darn day without doing a single thing that is meaningful and that isn't a waste of a day. I really want to be with my fiance' but since I'm mentally unstable she doesn't know when I can see her again and be with her. I tried begging for her to move our wedding the closer but she wants to go to Art School first which is a four year school. I don't think I can do nothing and be bored for four more years. I can wait for her but I just want a freaking job! I need a car and a licence. Money is what I really need. This is just hopeless in living this way. Why should I continue to live? Will anything get better?

Simple awnser live for the ones you love and for thoghs who love you such as your Fiance'. Imagin if your Fiance' came home to find you dead she will be depressed and angery and in the exact perssion as you. Just go out for a run or a sprint, herd it relives stress.

My doc always told me that the best anti-depressant is to exercise outdoors. Getting out of the house takes your mind off of things, and exercise releases endorphins that lift your mood. The next best thing is to DO something so you're not so bored. Clean the house, alphabetize your bookshelf, mow the lawn, etc.

Thanks everyone. You don't really know how much I needed to hear that from everyone. I'm glad you all care.

Well said, Laura. And of course we care TigerFire. I find that a lot of people here are caring and give good advice. You ask why should you continue to live? Well there is a big reason why and that is your fiance. I've read your posts and I get the impression that you love each other very much. As Laura says, imagine how she would feel if you were no longer around, she'd be devastated. I know how it feels to be bored and penniless though, it is hard as I'm in that position at the moment (I walked out of my last job) but I'm trying to cheer myself up by doing exercise and by partaking in hobbies that I otherwise wouldnt have had time for when I did have a job. I'm just sorry that you are finding life difficult at the moment, but I'm sure that life will get better for you as, although its a while off, you have a future with your fiance to look forward to and I'm sure you'll get a job soon. Things can only get better as I tell myself every day.

You're right. I'm glad you all care for me. What can I do to repay you all for all your comforting? Well I'm trying to get better I'm not all the way there yet. Thanks.

At least you are trying to get better and thats all you can expect of yourself. You won't be all the way there yet, but the best advice I can give you is to continue to take it slowly if that is what you are doing and not to take on too much at once as this will hinder your progress. Best wishes for you TigerFire.

Thanks Fiz. I hope everything is going all right for you.

WAHOO!! I had a winner

A winner? What do you mean by that?

a winner is a general term for me that i did good. In this case i gave good advise.

Yes you have given great advice. Thanks.