Questioning
Like quite a few others here on the forums, I don't know whether I have Asperger's or not, but I find I fit many of the traits.
As a child I was very talkative, you couldn't shut me up, unless I didn't know you. My inability to talk to 'strangers' and look them in the eye lead my parents, thinking I was an extremely shy child, to enrol me in drama classes, which was probably the best thing for me. There I learnt how to pretend to be like everyone else and thus as an adult of nearly 35, I can fake being normal but find it extremely tiring. I still dislike social situations with people I don't know well and thus have to engage in small talk with- just can't stand small talk, it seems so pointless. However, get me started a topic I know something about and you can't shut me up. I'm working on not dominating a conversation, but it is a work in progress.
I am finding working in an office surrounded by non-geeky women that I don't think or feel like they do. I have one co-worker who gets extremely frustrated that I don't get very excited about events she feels I should, like my upcoming birthday or an overseas trip. I don't see why I should feel that way, but apparently it is odd that I don't. Throughout my life I have had trouble finding and keeping friends, but in my adult life (well the last 10 years) I have been fortunate to find some fantastic geeky people who seem to enjoy having me around.
Like many aspies, I was an extremely awkward and clumsy child. I was enrolled in dance classes, but failed every single ballet exam and it took me ages to learn a routine. My rheumatologist (I have a pain disorder) has commented many times that I move like I am uncomfortable in my body and haven't worked out how it all works yet which I feel is a very accurate description of how I move. My handwriting was appalling and I had to take remedial classes in primary school to improve it. I worked really hard in my late teens to improve it, but if I don't concentrate on forming my letters than it goes back to scrawl. I also have difficulties hearing sounds in words which makes my spelling not fantastic (thank gods for spellcheckers) and learning a new language a nightmare.
I also suffer from anxiety and get extremely stressed out in certain situations like crowded supermarkets (have learnt to shop early on a Sunday morning) and I really don't like it when my routines get upset or things don't go to my internal plan. I am happiest when I can plan out how my day is going to progress and have it happen the way that it is in my head.
Well, I feel I have gone on about me for far too long. Looking forward to getting to know everyone here and finding out more about Asperger's.
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As a child I was very talkative, you couldn't shut me up, unless I didn't know you. My inability to talk to 'strangers' and look them in the eye lead my parents, thinking I was an extremely shy child, to enrol me in drama classes, which was probably the best thing for me. There I learnt how to pretend to be like everyone else and thus as an adult of nearly 35, I can fake being normal but find it extremely tiring. I still dislike social situations with people I don't know well and thus have to engage in small talk with- just can't stand small talk, it seems so pointless. However, get me started a topic I know something about and you can't shut me up. I'm working on not dominating a conversation, but it is a work in progress.
I am finding working in an office surrounded by non-geeky women that I don't think or feel like they do. I have one co-worker who gets extremely frustrated that I don't get very excited about events she feels I should, like my upcoming birthday or an overseas trip. I don't see why I should feel that way, but apparently it is odd that I don't. Throughout my life I have had trouble finding and keeping friends, but in my adult life (well the last 10 years) I have been fortunate to find some fantastic geeky people who seem to enjoy having me around.
Like many aspies, I was an extremely awkward and clumsy child. I was enrolled in dance classes, but failed every single ballet exam and it took me ages to learn a routine. My rheumatologist (I have a pain disorder) has commented many times that I move like I am uncomfortable in my body and haven't worked out how it all works yet which I feel is a very accurate description of how I move. My handwriting was appalling and I had to take remedial classes in primary school to improve it. I worked really hard in my late teens to improve it, but if I don't concentrate on forming my letters than it goes back to scrawl. I also have difficulties hearing sounds in words which makes my spelling not fantastic (thank gods for spellcheckers) and learning a new language a nightmare.
I also suffer from anxiety and get extremely stressed out in certain situations like crowded supermarkets (have learnt to shop early on a Sunday morning) and I really don't like it when my routines get upset or things don't go to my internal plan. I am happiest when I can plan out how my day is going to progress and have it happen the way that it is in my head.
Well, I feel I have gone on about me for far too long. Looking forward to getting to know everyone here and finding out more about Asperger's.
I'm 95% sure if you presented to a psychiatrist and told him all this he would diagnose you with Asperger's!
I used to have unbearable anxiety but I found fluoxetine (Prozac) helped a lot with that. It helped chill me out a bit more too. They can't 'cure' Asperger's but they can help you manage some of the side effects.
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