anbuend wrote:
People have been calling me a leader since long before I was aware they were calling me that. I never set out to be a leader. I only set out to do what I thought was right. And people apparently followed me for that. I would continue doing the exact same thing whether or not anyone followed me. To be honest having people trust me so much unnerves me. I am highly aware of my own limitations and am frequently afraid someone will see me do something incredibly stupid and think it's a good idea. I do think there is a big difference between me and people who consciously set out to be leaders. I wouldn't know how to do that if I tried. I know autistic people who do it consciously though so it's not an autistic vs nonautistic thing, it's just a difference in motivation. The idea that some people follow me is rather terrifying but if I stopped doing what I think is right because of that it would be no better than doing something wrong with the intent of being followed. So I continue doing my own thing and if people choose to follow or not follow it's none of my doing either way.
I too have been told that I'm a leader; I didn't set out to be one, I'm just doing what I believe to be the right thing.
I wouldn't be afraid of someone else seeing you do something stupid and think it's a good idea, though; hell they see other people doing stupid things all the time, and not only do they think it's a good idea, the people they're imitating
tell them it's a good idea.
I just do what I believe to be right, and take it from there; if others choose to join me in that fine, but I'm not changing course just cause someone else gets bored.