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from now on i will just post in this post.
i been slowly weening off this medication and im feeling much better it was making me not good. my parents havent changed a wit. even if they have how could i trust them, they put through years of hell wittly or unwittly. im out at the first oppurtunity.

could someone please tell me(honestly) that the effect of this med is not permanant?

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my dad gave me a riproaring case of probaly ptsd in the past, i should pointout ptsd is a description only, its basically cortisol toxicity wich can be repaired quite easily (hey i am a genius). the current crop of (treat and manage theory of medicine in the west wich is losing to holistic healing method) medications for it dont heal just suppress the symptons. some otc stuff helps alot. one of the causes is sever abuse during childhood.

one of the signs was hopelessnes and helplessnes both of wich i had in spades. not anymore
its gone now the part of my brain that had it was burned dead.

my dad got me once(childhood and teenage) he got twice(putting me threw h*ll after coming home from college) ill will not let him get me a third time.
im just not sure how.

i suppose its my fault for not asking for help before, about 4-5 times i nealy told someone, a teacher the police, the college nurse, the police again twice recently, i lived in fear of him.
i couldnt do it cuz i needed him and was afraid of the reprocussions. and i never had the right words for it, and lacking hard evidence, i wasn't sure about being believed. plus hes a really good liar.

the dx was a way for him to get me. in my house that meant losing your rights. it was an automatic sentence to be thrown in a garbage can(being drugged and psychotherapized irregardless of what i thought of it)

have i wierded everyone out? noone seems to be responding

Nope. We are just quiet people. Your typed thoughts seem much more orderly now too. Keep fighting, we are all cheering for you(somewhat silently!)

I know what you're going through. My parents have been giving me hell as well and so has my sister. I also don't think I should or would trust my parents as well. I'm crying as I write this. I don't know about this medicine that you're on but if you need someone you can count on me. I also need some friend to talk to. I must have scared away Fiz.

Ok, if you've decided to just post here, that's fine.

for the haven, it will be easier to follow

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what do you think my parents seem to have become nice now, or just dont care anymore
should i stay with them
or i have this friend im unsure about that i could stay with