Lonely, depressed and de-tached from the world.

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I feel like I can't trust or relate to anyone. All the people who I thought were fiends I can't trust, i feel like the only people who care are my family who live miles away.

I alienate myself from people because I feel like I can't relate to them. I have very few, (maybe none) real friends. Even getting out of bed in the morning to face the day is hard. I just don't see the point of it all because all you do is wake up, earn money to live, go to bed, repeat for however many years. All seems like a waste.

Anxiety, stress, meltdowns, people who I thought were special telling me I'm "weak" and "don't have aspergers"
They don't know sh*t about me or my life!

If something could make it pointful, I really need to know.

If you feel critically low on energy, you may need to move closer to your family. In America people scoff at "grown-ups" who live with their parents, but in Russia and a number of other countries it is nothing unusual.

Is there you can meet people who share some of the same interests or beliefs as you? I hope things get better for you soon.

Is there a way where you can meet people who share some of the same interests or beliefs as you? I hope things get better for you soon.

That's what it's been like for so many years now: surviving in isolation, getting by, understood by none that I know, unable to relate, reluctant to even try because of the condescension that will likely ensue. What's kept me going is the thought that the answer might be just around the corner, and I've got to survive to get there. That experience might build tenacity and self-reliance, but it's not with a sense of pride or conceit because ultimately there may be no answer to be found. So, this is it. I continue with or without a sense of meaning. If I can't live this moment, meaningless though it may seem, what moment can I live?

But here I see someone has written words that describe so much of my experience, and that is an incredibly meaningful thing to me.

I know. It's hard to find people you can trust, that you can believe in outside of family(sometimes even family doesn't fit that bill). Despite whatever setbacks you've had, you still got to try opening up to a few people now and then and take a chance for something better to happen. What's the alternative?, live by yourself in a room until you die? That would be a waste.

That's life for most of us. Eat, sleep, earn money, lose money, repeat. You only hear about the exceptional lives out there, but most people's lives are like yours, so you don't hear about it as much.
To be fair, I do sometimes get the impression that you do isolate yourself and are somewhat distant in your posts. Maybe it's because you are depressed or it's your aspie side showing but I get the impression you don't want to connect with anyone for fear of being hurt. I'm not trying to criticize though, it's just an observation. I think you're rather cool person so I tend to notice your posts.
You just need some better friends really and I hope you start feeling better soon. *hugs*

You give life your own life meaning(or make it pointful as you say). You got your own forum and a video channel for helping other aspies, that's something isn't it?

I've been there... and occasionally land there after a long spell of doing well. Not being properly diagnosed is where half of my frustrations come from because my family is, for the most part, a self centered, materialistic bunch of know-it-alls who looked at me with disgust when I finally discovered why I am the way I am and tried to explain it to them.

I too don't relate to people nor do I click with "normal" ways of doing things (it's been a long, hard road of being odd). So when I run out of energy for living and ask myself, "Why is my life so hard, what is the purpose of all of this, why don't people understand me, why aren't more people like me", there is only one thing that will put me back in the driver's seat...

I get myself as alone as possible. I sit down at my desk. I push everything off and sit there, reflecting... thinking..... sobbing. I usually end up getting angry and my bottled frustrations come out - whatever happens just happens, I let it all out. After the drama, I usually find myself in a determined state of mind, asking myself a very important question, "What really makes me happy in life"? When I reach a conclusion and decide to better live for myself instead of others, I set my destination towards that one true thing and run with it...

It doesn't always play out like I described, but the end result is always the same. Get away from people that criticize and hurt, they are toxic to your happiness. Life is about chasing after what makes you happy.

Can I bite the people who were mean to you?
I hope you feel better soon,. You have a lot of people who care about you. Not to mention you have a bunch of fans who always want to know what you have to say.

Thanks. I haven't always been the most supportive person here and got pissed off a lot. I'm becoming who I am now and I want to help people.

I guess I'll just sleep.

I've gone through the same thing, when I was your age. I've been told similar things. I hope that you feel better, soon. Here's a hug. :O)

The parts I've deleted I can't relate to, but the rest is similar.

I think you might want to find a hobby or something to spend that money on for example saving up for a really cool Ford or collecting knives. Something like that. There's got to be something you like, right?

Also there are more scumbags in this world then good people, that's another reason why it's hard to trust people. Fortunately there are a lot of nice people on here =)

Well, we're not perfect. That's what makes us human beings. All of us on WP applaud your efforts to be supportive, and feel you're a great asset to the community.

awwwh, hope you're feeling better soon

I can identify with a lot of what you said. I'm not sure there's any quick and easy solutions (if so I want to know them), or any ephiphanies that will make it all have a point. But, from my experience things do tend to get better after a time. It helps me to make sure I spend some time doing something I enjoy each day. And, for the little it's worth, you can count me among those who find your posts and videos helpful and informative (even though I don't post myself very frequently).

Never trust anybody.

That's pretty much what life is unless you have an unusually large sum of cash. Wake up, go to work, go home, and do whatever.

That's pretty much what it is for me.

I know you probably posted seeking for more ideas, sorry, I just wanted to throw out there that I share this same issue.

11pm, wake up, work, 6am, go home, go on the computer, sleep. Pretty much no social interaction whatsoever. Just letting life pass me by.