We used to be best friends in 6th grade, but then she started changing. She's gotten very pessimistic and carefree, and has an outlook on life that makes it hard for me to enjoy time with her. She seems to believe this crazy irrational stuff, like she will track down this rock star she loves, and he will fall in love with her. Also, she's too touchy; sometimes it's like she's a lesbian or something.
And, even though this sounds awful, she isn't a native English speaker. Our cultures are too different. It was OK, when I had no friends in Turkish school, but now we've both matured apart from each other, and we're too different. And the language barrier is difficult, because I love English and Bush-isms too much.
I think she may like that difference perhaps, but it makes being her friend way too hard for me, and all work. And plus she smokes constantly, and I don't want second-hand smoke.
So, I thought we were growing distant, and that was good, but now she is asking me about getting together, and complaining I never call, and she seems pissed. Does she have a right to be pissed? I don't want to be her friend anymore. How do I get this across gently?
Also, am I being evil for feeling this way? I think I hate commitment or something. But I've had longer, more successful friendships.