I've gotten past the stage of crying and mourning my failure, but I'm still really down in the dumps.
I failed a portion of the test; for everyone who's familiar with it, the portion was in deep-water back boarding (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ob7prswSwzU). For everyone not familiar with it, it is indeed a lot more difficult and tiring than it seems. I had a muscle spasm while holding it up out of the water, which made the board rock from side to side,
I'm retaking the course in September, but I have the lingering voice in my head that's saying, "What if you fail again? Than you'd be a real loser."
What makes it worse is that I have two friends coming home from camp who also took the course, and if one of them passes, I know for a fact that she'll rub it in my face.
While I did pass the portions on CPR, first aid, and AED, I still feel like a failure since I'm not a lifeguard. I was one of the only three of the twenty-two in the class who didn't pass.
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Happiness is not something ready made. It comes from your own actions.
Dalai Lama