Adamantus wrote:
I just found out that I have Autism, it seem very likely anyway. Everyone here seems the same as me and I can relate to what most people are saying. I just wonder what you're supposed to do once you have a diagnosis of this? I feel like I know why I failed in my previous jobs, why I can't talk to people, why I get hurt in every social encounter, and it looks like there is no cure for this. I've recently learnt EFT which is a godsend but although it allows me to feel perfectly peaceful and calm on the inside, I still wonder what I'm supposed to do for a job, and whether I can ever really relate to people. I feel bitter and really upset and I don't know what to do.
Hm, let me see....
Well, having a diagnosis got me access to therapy and support which helped me to get on with my life. A diagnosis also led me to others on the spectrum who are now my closest and dearest friends. Suprisingly, having special needs was sort of the reason why I decided to make movies because I don't think I would have tried stop motion animation if it werent for a specific organisation in my city that provide arts and crafts workshops for the disabled. However, I think the biggest reason why being aware of my diagnosis made me feel happy was because it explained why I was different and it helped me to understand myself better.
Now employment is pretty difficult to get these days (especially if you have a form of autism) and I empathise with your frustration, but being autistic doesn't neccesarily mean that you aren't going to get employment. I don't know your personal situation, but I know plenty of people from all over the spectrum who have employment. Some of them have very good, well paying, full-time employment. One of my best friends is so well off at the moment that he's planning on moving to South Africa (and he's what you might call an aspie stereotype). I don't know what advice to give you as I volunteer (it's difficult to find a paying job where I come from and I'm a student) but I think there's some resources on employment and autism on this website.
As for relating to people, I understand what you mean, but I think you need to take a step back and look at the whole spectrum of the human condition. Everyone feels this way. All of us feel insignificant, pathetic, stupid, lonely and powerless. It's just part of being human. I hope you can take some comfort in the fact that at least in that respect, you relate to everyone o the planet. However, I'm willing to bet that you do in fact relate to people a lot better than you realise. I'm sure you have similar priorities, ambitions, interests and ersonality to most people. And even if you could legitimately be called "abnormal", that's not always a bad thing.