Joined: 18 Nov 2008 Age: 38 Gender: Female Posts: 8,204 Location: Sydney, Australia
21 Nov 2010, 5:12 am
No. I have a pretty big ego about myself, though I hide it from others. But when I go through a lot of stress I do become depressed and sometimes think about suicide.
No bloody way, man! I'm happy to be alive and I'm glad that I wasn't aborted. How could I think that way, after making so many positive changes in my life? Life is the most precious that it's been for me, since the Mid-90s. Why would I throw everything away with drugs, a knife or a bullet? I'm happy to be alive and I'm glad that I was born. I'm sorry to put some sunshine, in your mornings.
Joined: 6 Oct 2009 Age: 38 Gender: Female Posts: 3,446 Location: A hidden forest
21 Nov 2010, 7:13 am
I don't wish I had never been born, because that's kind of useless. It's a wee bit late for that. I think of suicide often, but not in an "I want to kill myself" kind of way or an "I wish I were dead" kind of way. More like a "We'd better find a way to make this whole life thing more satisfying or we know where we'll end up in a few years" kind of way.
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Joined: 13 Jan 2008 Age: 45 Gender: Female Posts: 2,994
21 Nov 2010, 7:20 am
Since I was about 11, I have strongly wanted to die and wished I had never exisited. Ive tried to kill myself a few times. I ve found thinking about suicide a big burden in my life and felt very sad about not fitting in with life and not being able to do life.
However over the last month Ive actually felt pretty great, despite having quite a lot of bad life problems (relationship break up, probs with profesionals and probs with my kids). I read a confidence hypnotism book and cd and a healthy eating one by the same author (marisa peer) and its really lifted my spirits. When things have gone wrong for me socially Ive not felt so bad as I did before and feel much more resilient and generally happy. Ive been exercising a lot and it leaves me feeling buzzed and joyful where as before I felt exhausted after exercise. Its the first time I can remember that Ive not felt the need to binge or smoke to deal with my problems and feel relaxed and light.
I feel now that I want to live and get every inch of life even if there is suffering, I want to eperience it and have life.
Joined: 25 Oct 2010 Age: 31 Gender: Male Posts: 3,299
21 Nov 2010, 7:44 am
The past few months I have been incredibly depressed, crying everyday, losing many, many hours of sleep. I wanted to die so badly because I couldn't see a way through life at all. I am okay at the moment, I just need to find myself that has been lost.
Joined: 8 Oct 2006 Age: 34 Gender: Female Posts: 1,065 Location: Home
21 Nov 2010, 8:11 am
I used to quite a lot when I was at my lowest. I wouldn't really say I've attempted suicide, more that I really didn't care whether I lived or died so I wasn't really bothered when I took too many pills or stuff like that.
I think questioning your existence is just part of being human, and wishing you had never been born or were dead is pretty usual if you're feeling like crap.
Joined: 14 Aug 2008 Age: 52 Gender: Male Posts: 12,003 Location: australia
21 Nov 2010, 8:13 am
"wishing" is a useless action.
i am here in the world, and i feel comfortable and complacent.
i would never commit suicide because i will die for sure anyway someday, and i want to see and know things for as long as my body can last.
i do not want to die, but i know i will, and that is a reality which i am not happy about, but i hope that when i die, i will be so old that i am sick of life.
Joined: 13 Sep 2010 Age: 32 Gender: Male Posts: 191 Location: Perth, Australia
21 Nov 2010, 9:47 am
In recent months, yes, I have. Everything from crying spells, to wishing I was dead/never alive, to feeling so numb that it's not fair.
There's really only three things keeping me here:
1: The thoughts of everyone around me, and what'd happen if I offed myself.
2: My irrational fear of pain, thus I'm not about to slash my wrists any time soon.
3: What I could become, really. Make of that what you will.
So... yeah. I'm not about to leave this world in the near future.
Joined: 23 Aug 2006 Gender: Female Posts: 4,964 Location: Canada
21 Nov 2010, 9:47 am
I heartily blame my mother for bringing me into a world and a marriage that could not support me or defend or even feed me. But she couldn't do those things for herself either. Anyway, I should most certainly not have been born. Do I want to die? Often, since I was 5yo. I think I'd like to step in front of a truck, because truckers are so rude and crude even since I was a teen. They say the driver never recovers. I gotta stop this line of thinking right now, I could go on all day.
I rememeber envying kids with terminal illnesses as young as three or four. Make a Wish commercials only made me even more jelous. I looked foward to death as young as four and had I known sucide was possible I would have attempted it that young. I was a morbid child. If heaven is such a wonderful place why is everyone else so afraid of death? I never understood that and probably never will. I was the product of a rape and some of the people in the community wanted my biological mother to have an abortion. Sometimes I wish she did.
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Joined: 9 Nov 2010 Age: 28 Gender: Female Posts: 144
21 Nov 2010, 12:48 pm
I seldom think about suicide. I'm pretty pleased with my life.
Of course I have days when I wish I was never born, but after crying for hours I realise how much people care about me.