i want to dissapear......

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.........its so sad my parents are still completely clueless as to how I feel. I realize that I although at times I have tried, I haven't tried enough explaining how I feel, but communication has never been anywhere in the ballpark natural for me. I really don't know why I am alive. I am just a loner......

.....but my parents are seriously in another galaxy to me. I can't explain how I am feeling, but when I call my parents and say I can't fall asleep/ not feeling well/ feeling depressed they ask me why I am feeling that way. AS if I could just simply tell them! How do I f*****g explain basically my life which has been backwards as f**k????

I feel so dark and disturbed right now, and I dont know why I do anytning...........im just struggling endlessly....

.....alot of people are struggling to stay afloat because of the economy and the times.........but life moves on.

.......I feel like I am already submerged under water by 30 feet, and I trying desperately not to sink any farther, but the pressure is bringing me down. My mental capabilities and my social skills keep sinking.....everything makes me bitter sad and depressed and yet I hate to lug myself to work everyday JUST so I dont run out of money so I am not homeless. Other than that I have nothing right now. Nothing to live for.........

nothing feels natural.....If my life doesnt radically change, im going to die of some ailment or suicide. I don't have a social support. The only friends I have see me as someone else who i am not really, and I don't trust them with my real feelings. I don't want pity from strangers who think they can try to help me, but won't ever understand a word I say.

I look and feel like I am dead, and It shows I know f*****g well it shows....everywhere I go.......my "off" posture.........my distant eyes and bags underneath......I cant leave my house.....and when I do I have to be back...

If you're able to see a psychologist, see one immediately. It's also important for your family to support you, especially if you live with them. If you've tried to explain how you feel to them then I'm sure a psychologist will be able to intervene. In the meantime, I suggest doing some online reading up on Cognitive Behavioural Therapy, Acceptance and Commitment Therapy, or even just any self-help articles. Remember, you're not helpless and your situation can change.

I don't live anywhere near my parents....I moved away for college.....big mistake....well maybe a mistake too if I would have stayed home......seems like there is no right decision I can make.......

The problem with psychs is that I don't trust them. They won't f*****g understand. I have tried 1 before. What a f*****g waste of money. I can't afford really anything right now much less some high-nosed person who thinks he is superior to make assessments on my health on what I do and don't have.

I feel the same way as you, but I am 16. If you need someone to talk to, pm me.

Yes, you can PM me also if you like. There'd be too many things to write here.