Times When I Was Younger

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Well, I am here to post a few questions. When I ask my mom questions like "When I was at the age of 6, what was I like?" and she always responded me with a "You were a totally normal child.". Now, I'm somewhat bugged by this.

I clearly remember that I was extremely picky with food and was constantly moving for comfort (On one site, it said both are AS traits) and I remember how when I was younger I had sensory overloads (Which I don't really have now), however, when I realize how more social I am than some people on here, I really come to doubt my Aspieness.

My mom has always found the idea of me having AS absurd, which I don't really like. She barely listens to me when I try to say my reasons, which I hate.

And also, when I remember the times when I was a young child, I don't remember being bad at body language and similar (Besides the fact that I didn't run around the classroom when teacher was not there in the 1st grade when every other child would get mad and make mess throughout the classrom). I indeed was a little isolated from other children, but I enjoyed stuff they did too.




And... yup, I don't know how to put in words what I think, so please just tell me what do you think from the things I've posted if you can understand anything...

It doesn't sound to me like you have Asperger's. Some Aspie traits, maybe, but not enough to justify a full disgnosis. Also, many people with AS improve as they get older, so that could be a possibilty too.
Sorry if this wasn't helpful.

What DOES make you think you may be an Aspie?

By the way, I have never (to my knowledge) had trouble with body language or similar but I'm diagnosed.

Well, it's a long story, but I came to that possibility when I read Asperger's on Wikipedia and after my friend who has it told me some of it. I just found myself in it.

I think my mum/mom feels threatened by it. To her, AS means unintelligent and unable to communicate, and therefore I cannot have AS.

I think it also upsets the nurturing need: my mother is well into retirement, and is proud of successfully raising all her children to adulthood. To suddenly find that one had a problem all this time that she did not notice, and worse that she should start now to somehow be a carer again (in her mind), is not something she wants to face.

Like yours, my mother remembers my childhood as totally normal. But I remember avoiding any social situations, avoiding eye contact with anyone, repetitive behavior (I went through a phase of making odd noises, and another phase where if I turned one way I always had to turn the other so the total number of turns in a day averaged to zero), extreme focus on one project after another, all the usual things.

My mother is quite truthful about my childhood; at least, to the extent that I remember things.

I remember clinging to my mother's arm as other children approached us, and screaming like mad as they passed us by. It's funny that it's the same street I walk down now, with no problem at all. But I think that if I had not had told my mother that I remembered this particular episode, I get the feeling that she would have never told me about it in the first place.

Reading through this posts, I sometimes wonder if theres more to my past than I remember?

I don't think that my mom finds that threatening. She just can't figure out why I want to know if I have it so much and doesn't count "Curiosity" as a reason as it will not change anything in my life.

I remember that on a tournament a few years ago I felt really uncomfortable since all the noise around me and lot of people. Now, that doesn't happen much. However, I contradict myself at this point since I remember being on a concert when I was 6 and was feeling ok, so I don't know what to think.

And yeah, I remember avoiding social situations to some point, and still can't look at my teacher's eyes if they look at me at the same time. As for repetitive behaviour, I don't know this one really.

well... i was told by the psychiatrist that i should have asperger's last year when i was 18. I believe him, but i am pretty sure if I tell all my friends and everyone I know that i have asperger's, 90% of them probably would think it was a false diagnosis.
here's the way i look at it: all these syndromes and stuff are all man-made terms. Whether some authorities put you in those groups or not doesn't change who you are. I mean, it really doesn't matter if one day another psychiatrist pop up and say to me that "you don't have asperger's". I enjoy being on the wrong planet and i felt i am understood here, and i think asperger's syndrome properly describes me. I think that is all that matters. trust what your feelings tell you!
It's like art work and classical music. if you think it's there, it's there!

Thank you! Yes, I found myself in AS, I don't think anyone on this planet actually understands me besides other Aspies, heh.