The constant hurdles to life, I finally have a job after two years of rejections, I don't have an apartment of my own yet but thankfully get to sublet someone else's apartment.
However, due to the fact that I'm subletting it, I still do not have an official address for my registration causing me not to get the necessary documents needed to live here. Because of that, I can't get paid yet.
Couldn't get ahold of the Dutch embassy on the phone today, and they're only open on my exact work hours, which leaves me being only able to call them during my break.
It's genuinely a great job and company, but I still haven't broken out of the
You need a official residence in Berlin to get a job <---> You need a job and proof of income to get a place in Berlin
cycle.
Literally no one understands how bad this problem is for me especially because I don't have any savings left to just get a place of my own as well as the fact that I've been constantly ghosted by 99% of employers and people looking for roommates.
It's such an annoying problem that can't be solved by Googling or therapy; I don't need emotional support, I literally just want to live in Berlin and not suffer financially anymore. It's more than obvious that I have not been built for this capitalist system and got a lot of inspiration to start sketching out art concepts again to pitch for grants and funding so I could focus on that. I tried giving capitalism and the 9 to 5 life a shot, they rejected me!
My job is genuinely nice but I can't seem to focus currently due to the fact that I'm literally being a "volunteer" right now.