Confusing reality... could face being expelled

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Last edited by archraphael on 03 Aug 2011, 5:50 am, edited 2 times in total.

Don't think you are being manipulated :O
Rest I really don't know answer to

You are free to choose, just like everyone else. Consequences may follow. That's life.

Are you saying you have intrusive thoughts of a sexual and religious nature about people? If so, this could be an indication of OCD, and it's treatable.



Drugs and alcohol never make things better. Ever.



You might very well be suffering from delusions. I think it's important that you see a psychiatrist about this while you can still acknowledge that what is going on in your head is irrational.

No it is spontaneous unconscious imagery that comes out of nowhere, it is not in my conscious thoughts *AT ALL* when it happens... Say I paint a SQUARE... and somehow it turns into a bunch of twisted figures that someone might believe is people having sex or what not...
Like Jung & related theorists... Unconscious processes come to your reality when there is mental illness or unbalance in the conscious realm..

Really I don't think I obsess anymore about this situation than the people who are obsessed with getting 1up on me or the teacher... One girl... I swear to god... Spent an entire semester... Painting this... Terrible painting... As some sick attempt to "expose" something (even though NOTHING happened)... It was REAL though... And that b***h didn't even know me!! She didn't even talk to me!! As if she was COMMISSIONED by that teacher to create EVIL!! ! These people were psychologically tormenting and manipulative... And this other kid... Pure evil!! It's like EVERYONE at school is becoming EVIL and pretending THEY are the heros when they are clearly the opposite!! !! Instigators!! !! !
And ironically the ones seen as evil? Are the ones who want to LOVE!! ! Spread love!! ! THESE PEOPLE are spreading HATE!! And causing oppositional defiance by NEGATIVE REINFORCEMENT.

Maybe It's just typical AS paranoia cause of my stupid stupid social follies... And there are MANY in this story...

When I'm NOT alone and DON'T think about it, then it is clear to me that all of this is real. This is why I needed so desperately to be around people, but the same people who REJECT me.... I tried communicating to one of my teachers about this but she ends up passive aggressively IGNORING me rather than maybe even trying to bring me to reality, and just continue the entire avalanche!! ! My therapist was /outsourced while all of this was/is going on and I have *0* people to confide in... So it's NO WONDER I'm becoming 'OCD" obsessed with something and start thinking this and that....

Thanks everyone.. And you're right I have free will... and you're right I need to find a therapist/be evaluated... Oh I'm just sick of this entire system... It's no wonder I have teachers who reject it and fraternize or drink on campus anyways.... for that i give them RESPECT... This socialist schooling system is CORRUPT anyways... It prevents teachers from RELATING to their students and building TRUST. For those who want to impose a socialist POLICE STATE... no way jose!! ! They can give me dirty looks and try to go after me with the authorities at school.... They are just causing defiance!! !! They are the ones who need to be analyzing this to this extent!! !

Thanks for letting me let this out... Though I will probably delete all of this as I am still paranoid... These people are EVERYWHERE...

I also think you need to find some kind of mental health professional because what you are describing about your state of mind doesn't sound healthy. I hope you can find a peace of mind and that these intrusive thoughts will end.