Seeing something die before your eyes

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and not being able to stop it is horrifying.

I am losing something that I invested all of myself in, which was probably way too much in retrospect. but how was I to know then?

redundant. I made another thread like this. No one has died but a death may as well be occurring for all I'm losing and the grief I feel.

Indeed it is a scary thing, wishing you had some kind of control over the situation just in hope to make things right. We all make mistakes and giving your all in whatever you invested in showed how much you really cared about that thing or person. I know you are strong enough to get through this it just will take some time. *Hugs* and keep fighting you can overcome this tragedy!

yeah i saw my family dog die in my backyard when i was around 19. it was horrible.

the other two dogs were no where to be seen...probably giving her respect.

Thank you Trigas. Yes I guess by definition if I hadn't invested everything in it it wouldn't be worth all this sorrow that losing it's causing now

Thank you for the hug and kind words, it means a lot.

Negolin yes my dog died two years ago and it was a terrible thing, watching them go before your eyes and having no way to stop it, and he was literally my best friend at the time, the only friend I had, this dog, and the best friend you could imagine

Oh God I am so sad, I felt I actually had a future, I felt there was a future and now why is it being taken from me.

Why is this happening, even when I was suicidal and I felt like I was in a nightmare.. nothing compares to the cold sane realization you're losing something irreplaceable

This is part of what I thought when I lost someone 2 weeks ago. It gets worse.. imagine losing a mom, or a girlfriend.. a wife, or a son.

You always dream that they'll come back somehow.. and yet it never comes true.

Anything you guys did together, is done and over with.. any talks, no new memories.. its very scary.

I had a cat that died like this. I didn't know exactly at what point the death occurred, and all along I had hoped that the vet would be able to fix the cat. Over the course of a few hours the cat experienced distress and went unconscious. We got in the car and my mom started toward the vet, but we realized nothing could be done and we went back home and I buried the cat. It was only after I buried the cat that I realized how sad I was about how I would never see the cat again.

I feel a bit stupid now cause the thing in question isn't a real death but a... the end of a type of friendship. I don't feel at liberty to call it anything more though it was of a very strong sort. All I can say is what it meant to me.

Anyway yes I am experiencing the same emotions as I would for a death.

I've actually read somewhere that relationships ending is equivalent emotionally to a person dying.

Anyway sorry you're feeling down all the same.

Thank you. That makes me feel better.

I think it's mental hospital time for me again. I just broke a bunch of stuff and feel like jumping out a window.

Ouch, did something happen?

I know sometimes the grief of dealing with things can lead someone to feel that way, I feel like breaking stuff often also.

some sort of relationship ending

I want to get put in hospital but I don't want to cuz know they do nothing, worse than nothing, want to be in a coma like they put you in for unbearable physical pain

Would talking help? I wouldn't want anything to happen to you, but I kinda hear you about the coma thing.

thanks but don't think so. appreciate it much. will see therapist in morning and will just swallow all my pills in front of her if I feel I can't take it so they put me somewhere and drug me

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I'm going through something similar with a friend, who I saw last night. It was unbelieveably tough to sit in the same room and know that the relationship which I have cherished for the past 20 years has been utterly rejected by him.

I don't feel suicidal about it, just utterly sad. And yes, I am mourning the loss too. It's all so senseless.