I dislike people of all types.
I'm jealous of people that are cute, smart, talented, attractive, rich, clean, confident, educated, and charismatic. I'm also bitter about people that have friends and have dated.
Because I am none of those things and I haven't had any of those things. I'm just a pathetic, depressed, bitter, angry, suicidal, miserable, and lonely 25 year old hermit that does nothing everyday but play video games and look at porn and anime.
I don't care what people say. I'm gonna keep posting on this site, regardless of whether people hate me and want me to just go away. (not any different from RL)
I have a right to feel this way. I'm tired of people in real life and on every site, blog, tv show, forum (this one included) bragging about who they've been sleeping with, how many parters they've had, or how they're so "in love" with a person when I can't even f*****g get a person of the opposite sex to even to talk to me. Or how they went out partying and having fun with their friends, when the "friends" I had in the past hung out with me just to use my stuff. They always treated me like s**t, never respected me, and never wanted to go anywhere with me in public.
I"m so sick of this s**t, I JUST WANT TO SCREAM. It's maddening and frustrating that I'm alone and miserable when so many people are out having fun and living life. I hate it, and I hate the fact that there's pretty much nothing I can do to change it even more.
I don't know if this will be helpful to you or not..
It sounds like you've spent a good amount of time figuring out what doesn't work to make you a happy person and have been angry and depressed for awhile. It's easy to look at other people that have things and attributes you want and think they've got the perfect life that you want; as you get to know more and more people and really pay attention you'll discover that those people can and do feel just like you do and despite all appearances aren't happy.
I spent a long time angry and depressed too; it's sad that people turn on you so much just for being different; the things that make you a target in school help you excel in REAL life later. Only in hind sight did I realize that I was most often creating the situation of rejection by assuming people would do and acting accordingly based on the past. When I read your post it says to me one thing.. you don't really like yourself.
This might sound like a BS cliche to you but I swear it's true:
You must get to a point that you like yourself and appreciate what is good about you. Things you think are no big deal because they're easy to you can be considered huge gifts by others. When you're cool being you it's not hard to get someone that likes you to approach you (that's the problem you don't know how to approach them... so attract them instead). That might mean that you need to take a hard look at yourself and clean yourself up... and pay attention better.
I missed MANY of the early attempts by girls because I figured they were trying to trick me. Be on the lookout for 'users' (you've already found some).. an easy test is to say no or postpone things and see how they react. The users will turn up the heat to try to get you to do things for them and when you need something they'll drop you in a second or turn on you. The right person for you will appreciate who you are; don't let the shallow 'users' discourage you.. you DON'T want them in your life anyway.
Good luck and don't give up on it... just adapt and get comfortable being you.
they say that jealousy is the highest form of admiration. sounds like you resent people more than actually disliking them. i feel the same way about very popular people, especially where i work, because they're more likely to get the promotions i want. i also tend to think that very social types aren't genuine, though i know it's just my bias in favor of quiet folks. i try to remember that everyone has problems - health problems, relationship problems, financial problems - and that everyone eventually has to face death. we are all equal, even if everyone doesn't act as if we are. no one is actually any better than me or you.
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OK, you say that you dislike people of all types, but most people aren't cute, smart, talented, attractive, rich, confident, educated or charismatic, let alone all of those characteristics.
I don't know where you're from, but your English is obviously fine, so that gives you a bigger chance of getting a decent education. There's an area near me that's so poor that most people are jobless, and a lot of them are illiterate.
I believe 80% of the world is poor, and about 2% are rich. A lot of people pretend to be confident, and sometimes more successful than they actually are, including with how many people they date.
What you need to do is direct your anger to improving yourself. You don't want to be like this forever, do you?
I wouldn't say that, really. I would call it quite dangerous and extremely negative. Jealousy is a poison, and it often hurts or affects the target in a negative way.
I think you're talking about envy.
I wouldn't say that, really. I would call it quite dangerous and extremely negative. Jealousy is a poison, and it often hurts or affects the target in a negative way.
I think you're talking about envy.
I didn't know there was any really difference.
I'm in an area similar to that now. In fact, most of my family ( me included) is poor, HS dropouts (or spent the majority of their school years in special ed), jobless, (or working at dead end jobs) and surviving off SSI and food stamps month to month. Only a handful has ever graduated from HS let alone attended college.
What choice do I have? I'm just a pathetic, good for nothing bum that doesn't have anything going myself.
What hope do I have for friends, dating, and having a happy life?
What choice do I have? I'm just a pathetic, good for nothing bum that doesn't have anything going myself.
What hope do I have for friends, dating, and having a happy life?
As much hope as you want really. We live in a world where knowledge is freely accessible now - you can learn almost anything without going to college now.
You can't do everything at once but pick one thing and work on that; you can be whoever you want to be. Don't sell yourself short.. a lot of very influential and successful people didn't finish High School or College but lots of mediocre people do. Stop wallowing in what you haven't done or don't have and go change the world
Are you sure? A lot of other people think so. I mean, why else would they make fun of, humiliate, embarrass, and disrespect me? Why do they talk down to me? Why? It's because I'm inferior.
I'm butt ugly, uneducated, (dropped out in the 9th after repeating the grade and spending most of my school years in special ed) mentally-slow, poor, annoying and irritating, I lack confidence, charisma, talents and any skills that are useful or attractive.
I don't bathe, in fact I haven't showered in 2 months and I've once went 6 months without bathing. I'm also a 25 year old hermit that still lives with his parents and hasn't left the house in the past few years.
I'm a pathetic and hopeless loser that no one wants to be friends or go out with.
If that doesn't scream inferior then I don't know what will.
What hope do I have for friends, dating, and having a happy life?
Then read how to - body language books, books on how to talk to people etc. As another user said, there's lots of info on the 'net. If you want to change who you are, then do it. Ignore people's advice about acting yourself - if you appear a creep to people and you hate yourself, and others dislike you, then change yourself. That's what I did. I'm nothing like I used to be. I used to be very emotional, clingy, and a bit creepy, and had no self belief, and couldn't make friends. Then I thought, f*** it, I'm going to do all I can to get out of this situation, because it's horrible. I hated myself, so I changed my thinking patterns and learned how to appear confident and able to handle people. It's very possible, you just have to read up lots on how. It's not going to be an instant change, but you're not too old to begin.
Do you just want to have sex? Or do you want a partner? There are women out there who will screw yout brains out. All you have to do is a) smarten your appearance up; b) get involved with social activities; c) work out/eat better and d) live in a city or somewhere outside a small village/town. Voila! You might end up sleeping with utter dogs but at least your knob will get a workout.
Me having low self esteem give people no right to treat me like s**t and make fun of me, when all I've done is try to be nice and friendly.
Do you just want to have sex? Or do you want a partner? There are women out there who will screw yout brains out. All you have to do is a) smarten your appearance up; b) get involved with social activities; c) work out/eat better and d) live in a city or somewhere outside a small village/town. Voila! You might end up sleeping with utter dogs but at least your knob will get a workout.
I don't want sex unless I'm married. All I want are friends that respect me and are not ashamed of me, and a woman that genuinely loves me and share similar interests. I know this is very unlikely happen, but still.
