I'm currently very very scared and none of my friends is home or online right now.
I'm having that appointment in the psychiatry tomorrow, ambulatory only, just this 1 1/2 hour and I just decided I don't want to go! I had this appointment made for my secretly, my family completely obvious because they won't approve, to find out whether I have AS or not. I'm currentloy feeling like this I think ->
Scared and utterly not willing to go tomorrow morning.
What will it be about, I mean, what is that doctor going to ask and such and what if I can't think of an answer and what the heck am I going to answer when she asks, why I think I have AS? I'm clueless!
My, I needed to get this off. I don't think it's working though, talking about it. I'm still feeling unsettled. What if my auntie, who works in the hospital, sees me? Gosh, she'd call my mother immediatly. And then, what if my family will know?
And what if I get told, I'm so not autistic and that I'm just a hopeless case of uh... don't know, depression? I'm so not depressed. Or Borderline - I do know someone with it and she's scary! I don't get her at all, she's very different from other people and I never know why she's always angry with me.
Or that I'm just insane. Is that a diagnosis?