I do not believe in the abstraction we call time: the past does not exist, there is no going back.
Also, I seem to be really "good" at burning bridges, both with jobs and friends. Things are going great, then after a couple years ... bam! never again.
Also, I am missing most (95%+) of my childhood experiential memories, up to the time I left my parent's home to go to college. I remember only trauma from that period. I lost those memories in one catastrophic event, a sudden severance, when I was 18. I believe that I still retain those memories somewhere, but the neural pathways (bridges) to get to them are burned out.
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No dx yet ... AS=171/200,NT=13/200 ... EQ=9/SQ=128 ... AQ=39 ... MB=IntJ