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Been going through old message on FB, and old emails, and marveling at all the people I wrote, who never wrote back. Always I was wondering how they were doing, or wanting to meet up and hang out. Never a reply, from guys I considered my best friend, and girls I was in love with, but who did not reciprocate.

One girl I knew from college, a really talented artist, and I come to find she now works at a f*****g coffee shop, and doesn't paint anymore. I asked her if she wanted to meet up to see some short films being screened at the art house, and the b***h said no because she has a boyfriend, and he might be weirded out. f**k her. What kind of self respecting woman let's a man decide who she will and will not see? She was such a vibrant, independent woman, who could've done great things as a painter, and instead she's a goddamn hypocrite, and sold all that out for a little male action. Pathetic loser, and thank god I wasn't into her, or her mediocrity would've dragged me down.

Then there was the high school teammate who never wanted to chat on FB, never answered his phone. I thought he was one of the few people in HS who liked me, but nope.

For so long my self esteem was all messed up, because I wondered what was wrong with me, when it was really that I surrounded myself with people who I wanted to like me, but didn't. It was my own doing, I suppose. But I've sure learned to treasure the real friends I've got. Although I'm tempted to write those people and tell them how rotten they are. It's time we all were more upfront. Bad people need to be told as such, and should feel rotten. Instead they get away with shabby treatment because our society is too polite.

Meow.

But talk about an unhealthy relationship, when who you hang out with is determined by the whims of your partner. When I have a girlfriend, I sure as hell won't prevent her from hanging out with her friends, and I sure wouldn't let her prevent me from hanging out with my friends.

No but I don't respect women who make themselves slaves to the will of their men. Relationships should be on equal footing, a partnership, and in spite of all the progress that has been made on the front of women's lib and equality, there are still so many who VOLUNTARILY submit to their men. And in the aforementioned case, it was particularly tragic because she gave up her talents to work a menial job and sustain this worthless relationship. She had a gift that I certainly do not have, and people who are gifted have no right to throw them away. It is an insult to themselves, their creators, and the rest of us Salieri's "cursed with desire but denied the talent."

Precisely. I don't respect artists who sacrifice their gifts to make a living, because they are throwing them away!

Granted, one must pay the bills, but there is ALWAYS time to be found to keep pulling forward, if only people prioritized. I work my ass off to pay the bills, working 45-50 hours a week, and you know what? When I get home I spend my evenings working on my films, and I'm often up until late hours sketching storyboards. I use my weekends to work more still. People would get a lot done if they didn't waste time drinking, partying, and being f*****g idiots. In this case, the girl sacrificed her gift because she'd rather spend time with some man who dictates whom she can and cannot see. For such a slavish outlook, for wantonly embracing mediocrity, she deserves to lose her talents quite frankly.