Who else on here has Borderline Personality Disorder?

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I need someone to talk to desperately!

I was diagnosed with it 8 years ago when I was suffering from a psychotic depression due to problems over a break up. I doubt I really did have it now because I'm over a lot of those issues but I've done a bit of research on it & I've known people with it on other forums so maybe I could help

I have bi polar. I take over the counter prescriptions: Nabilone and co respiridone when I'm not self medicating with marijuana. Marijuana I find has helped me wonderfully with my bi polar.

That's how I cope with it (medicinally)

I might be having it what are the symptoms??

I have Borderline Personality Disorder along with PTSD, Anxiety Disorder, Major depressive disorder and Asperger's. What do you need to talk about?

I think that's what my therapist thinks I have because she gave me some CBT worksheets for people with BPD when I mentioned ABA. I don't think so because I'm completely unable/not interested in controlling anyone. It sort of sounds like something other people that I know have though.

FYI-I find YouTube videos informative about stuff. When I first saw the BPD thing written down & was looking it up I saw quite a few people on YouTube talking about it, who had blogs and stuff so you might want to do a search for that too.

I have some symptoms but my main issue is depression.

Well, I think, and my psychiatrist thought, I had aspergers traits, but also, borderline personality traits, so he was a bit confused. But if it helps, I think I developed some form of emotional problem very much like borderline, because of things that happened to me.
I used to be a really nice, innocent little boy, always on my own, kind to people if they needed help and very driven to do things, but when I was about 15, something changed, and I felt from then like I had two very distinct sides, one is that same little kind caring boy, the other is this emotional idiot with stupid insane ideas and anger issues. To an extent everyone has that same two sides in their personality, people get angry, then calm down again, but if borderline is what I have, then it is not normal. For example, one of my best friends for years posted an fb comment, and I took it literally at first before reading it properly. He was basically joking about my intelligence. I think an average person would have realised it straight away and laughed too, but I didn't, so my anger came out, I suddenly HATED him and wanted to tell him to shut up etc, never wanted to see him again for saying that to me. Then, I read his message again, and then I realised what he was saying was intended as a joke, and I came back to normal again, wondering why the hell I would get so angry so quickly over a little joke. Does that sound familiar? Perhaps if you post some examples of the problems you're having it would help us to help you

I'm still trying to figure out the difference between what my Borderline behaviors are and what my Aspie behaviors are.
I actually just brought this up in another thread, but I am told that the Borderline makes me cooperatively belligerent. I don't understand how I can be both of those at the same time.

I asked my doctor did they believe I had this and they said 'no'

Borderline is a hard thing to diagnose because so many of the symptoms can be explained by different disorder and it has a high co-morbidity level. It is something I would love to not have on my medical record. In my experience it has a huge amount of stigma with the medical community.

I was diagnosed with Borderline PD, schizotypal PD and histrionic PD as a teen, am now in my mid-30s. Late (upcoming) diagnosis of Apserger's. Like you, Ozzer, I'm now trying to figure out where I end and BPD begins, so to speak. I think that mistreatment of sensory-hypersensitive children (read abuse, neglect) can cause a borderline personality because the core belief is actually reinforced, "I'm broken." At least, for me it's this way. Not only do I believe I'm broken, but my Asperger's enforces this belief because I'm extremely clumsy, hypersensitive to all of my senses, very emotional, can cry, shout, rage, at the drop of a hat and I have severe separation anxiety/abandonment issues because every significant caregiver in my life either betrayed me or abused/neglected me. As an adult, this has resulted in abysmally low self-esteem, recurring suicidal ideation, and among other things, no real will to live or do anything positive for myself.

On a side note, I have too many people now that love/care for me for me to take my life, and it's sad to think that I can't stop myself if it weren't for them, but that's the reality. If I can help you in anyway, please PM me, I have around 10 years of experience working and talking with people with personality disorders. One of these days I will go for my master's in Psych.