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Hi everyone

I'm a 20 year old female Aspie, I was diagnosed 5 years ago. I always knew there was something extremely different about me. I've had lots of mental health problems in the past (which I resolved all by myself), and continue to have lots of unexplained strange mental experiences. I have been seeing professionals since I was 11, and social workers had been coming to my house when I was little. I always feel like "the professionals" are not listening to me at all. THEY don't get it, not me. If they're supposed to understand people so well why don't they just listen or accept that they don't understand? You can't study mental health in a book, you have to bloody listen and care about the individual.

Some of my unexplained things are that I "daydream" uncontrollably and mentally live a few months in the future. I make up entire parallel universes in my head. This may be because due to circumstances I was extremely isolated and bored when I was little, and had to make up my own worlds to relieve the boredom, and also the stress of being an aspie. Another thing is I don't think I have much of a sense of time. Also I don't feel like I'm really here. Also I am entirely dependant on my mother and can't work out why. My thoughts are "disorganised" and every single little thing I do takes an extremely long time. My entire life is just existing.

I have remaining easily catagorised problems that I'm trying to resolve: I have always suffered from extreme anxiety, a severe phobia, and depression. I can't imagine what it's like to not have these problems as they've always been there.

I'm sorry for this miserable first post, I had a lot of things I wanted to say but now can't remember (which always happens to me!) so I just wrote what I could.

So... hello

About me - I'm trying to learn maths as I think it will be good for my brain (but I'm struggling to find the time!), I want to learn about astrology and lunar cycles because it's fascinating that that white circle in the sky controls my periods, I think a lot about the meaning of life and have been a vegan for 5 1/2 years, I have a pointless little obsession with numerology and any name I see I will try and work out if that person has any Karmic Lacks (even though you need the full name to know this, and Karmic lacks aren't a particularly important part of a numberscope), and I have a burning desire to do something important in the world

Hey what's up? I'm a 14 year old female Aspie from America, diagnosed for 2 years.

I lived in Cornwall for three months, Redruth. Are you in Penzance?

Welcome to Wrong Planet. The meaning of life is very simple - You're born, you suffer, and then you die. This is the middle part. Any questions?

You forgot the "I wonder why I am suffering?" part, just before the dying part.

We suffer because it pleases the gods and gives them a good laugh at our expense.

Jerks.

Isn't the real tooth on the humour that the gods aren't home?

Welcome to WP!

Welcome Rainbowy

Same experience here. Well, you know, people have internal representations of people and of things, and even if it's hard to accept, they cannot understand what is different from there way of seeing things. You need to invite them and accompany them to make changes in their head, and it must be done rather slowly and friendly so that they can accept the change.


I had something like that. Some time ago, before waking up, I was dreaming that I was waking up and doing things. And when I realised that I was dreaming that I was waking up, I was desperate to do everything again !


That's the first step and you seem to do it well.


You imagine that your post is miserable, because you have a negative image of yourself. But in reality, your post is quite good.


In fact, the moon does not control your periods, they are only synchronized. Maybe the fact that you give much importance to the moon makes you synchronize more, but humans are basically programmed to have such period of time. It's like if you set two clocks at the same time, then you seperate them, they will continue to give the same time. Not because they are linked but because they have the same mechanism.


It's a logical point of view if you are worried by animal suffering.


I wish you to succeed, but maybe it is a very big goal here.

Welcome

Thank you for all your replies! Hello theaspiemusician, peterd, Tim_Tex, and TenPencePiece

Shrox - No, nowhere near Penzance, I'm near Portsmouth

AspieWolf - Lol, I like to think if your answers to big, meaningful questions are upsetting (or illogical), you've come to the wrong conclusion!

Circular - wow, thanks for the long post! Some good points well made. To avoid making this a really long post I won't quote you: With the daydreaming I meant during the daytime - I have invented my own complex mental inner existence. I'm not existing well because I somehow don't have the time for any basic activity, even eating or showering as often as I should, and I don't know why because I don't actually manage to do anything at all so I don't know where the time goes. With regards to actual night time dreaming, mine do that sometimes too! I have daytime flashbacks to these bizarre dreams, then followed by a wave of a feeling like mourning, then a panic attack. By "periods" I meant my menstrual cycle, which always starts on the day of a full moon. I am also vegan to minimise impact on food security and the environment. It is almost certain that I will never do something important, but this is my mental escape from reality!

You're welcome. Thanks for the feedback.


Maybe you can spot the moment where your mind turns off. It is ok to be in that state of hypnosis to recover, but sometimes it is not necessary. I am pretty sure that is where your time disappears.


Sometime I've got some panic attack when I realize I was not aware of reality, feeling insecure that I was not conscious. Do you talk about this ?


Yep. I understood. Mine don't, but I guess it's mainly because I am not a girl.


Good point too.


You can also have smaller positive goals about your life and for people. You can also be proud to succeed smaller goals. You can congratulate yourself when you succeed in small things.

Welkome to WP

Mick